- Jun 22, 2014
Today isn't going well. My in home therapist didn't show and I really needed to talk with her. It's the second time she's done this but the thought of finding a new therapist makes me want to pull the hair out of my head! I have an appointment today later to be assessed for a dual diagnosis group. Dreading that. I do intermittently abuse drugs but I can rarely get any. I just don't want to feel the way I feel! And I really hate groups! I feel so uncomfortable in them. And an element in my life that is really painful is my husband's attitude toward me and my illness. He puts me down, blames normal mishaps on my bipolar tells me it's hard to love such a damaged person. He puts down my looks since I have gained weight with the meds. Just too much! IMHO he needs education and therapy. I need to work on myself and believe I am value able, love able and worthwhile no matter what he says. It's a daily struggle. I have thought of leaving but I'm afraid I can't make it on my own in many ways. I just need some support from someone who understands. Thank you guys.