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Struggling a lot right now

valleygirl

valleygirl

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It's been a long time since I've been on the forum. Sorta been doing okay. But the last few weeks I have really spiralled down. Apartment's in a baaaaad state right now. Been having a lot of anxiety. Shopping way too much, spending way too much money. I'm working, but after work I crash and do nothing. Weekends I sometimes don't get out of my pjs the whole weekend. I was going to tackle the mess in my apartment this weekend, but that didn't happen. Anxiety was so bad I couldn't get myself off the couch. Went to the grocery store today and nearly caused a collision on the way there. It's been downhill ever since. Tried to go on crisis chat, but got timed out or something. Self harmed while waiting for someone on crisis chat. Haven't self harmed in like 4 years, but I needed the release.
 
TulipIceCream

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Do you want to talk about what it is that began the downward spiral? Maybe if we unpack that, we can find solutions or support or something ?

:grouphug:
 
valleygirl

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Do you want to talk about what it is that began the downward spiral? Maybe if we unpack that, we can find solutions or support or something ?

:grouphug:
I don't really know what began the downward spiral. I had my antidepressant upped a few months ago because I was quite poorly. It seemed to help initially, but not so much anymore, I guess. I see my psychiatrist tomorrow morning at 7:00 before work. I don't know what he's going to say. He may want to switch me to a different antipsychotic. I on Seroquel right now for bipolar disorder.

Today the little tykes at work were especially affectionate, giving me lots of hugs. That helped me get through the day. I always feel very fragile the day after I self harm, so it was nice to have that affection.
 
Mayflower7

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Good luck for your appointment, hope you feel better very soon.
Take care
 
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