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Onedayatatime73
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Hi everyone,
I am new to this site. I am looking forward to offering support and hopefully receiving some as well.
I've been in recovery for a long time, about 16 years. My children have never seen me sick and I am really grateful for that. I've been struggling on and off with restricting my food for the last five months or so. I am pretty sure what sparked it was when my daughter became very ill and had to be hospitalized four times in a short period of time. I've seen my general practitioner twice in the past few months. This last time she said she didn't want me to lose anymore weight and ordered lab work with nutrional markers. I had the lab work done and I'll see her on Monday. I don't weigh myself anymore or look at the number when I go see my doc. That's an old behavior that I use to feel enslaved by. I am scared my doc will think I am fat on Monday because I can tell by my clothes that I've put on some weight. I know that this is an irrtational Ed thought. So, I started restricting again because I know I am seeing her Monday. Sigh. Does anybody else get really anxious about going to the doctor and getting weighed? I have an amazing support network and I am grateful for all of them. Thanks for reading this very long post. I hope all of you have the very best day you can.
I am new to this site. I am looking forward to offering support and hopefully receiving some as well.
I've been in recovery for a long time, about 16 years. My children have never seen me sick and I am really grateful for that. I've been struggling on and off with restricting my food for the last five months or so. I am pretty sure what sparked it was when my daughter became very ill and had to be hospitalized four times in a short period of time. I've seen my general practitioner twice in the past few months. This last time she said she didn't want me to lose anymore weight and ordered lab work with nutrional markers. I had the lab work done and I'll see her on Monday. I don't weigh myself anymore or look at the number when I go see my doc. That's an old behavior that I use to feel enslaved by. I am scared my doc will think I am fat on Monday because I can tell by my clothes that I've put on some weight. I know that this is an irrtational Ed thought. So, I started restricting again because I know I am seeing her Monday. Sigh. Does anybody else get really anxious about going to the doctor and getting weighed? I have an amazing support network and I am grateful for all of them. Thanks for reading this very long post. I hope all of you have the very best day you can.