- May 2, 2020
I'm adult female, 24 years old. I live with my parents still til I graduate (next year ). All my life I felt like my relation to my parents (especially mother) are not so common. My mom is very great mother to me and my sister, but I have deep emotional attachment to her from childhood, like I can't" leave her alone". I sometimes regress talking to her (like a 6 year old child) I do everything that she would probably want me to do, behave the way she would like, her answers are most important to me/like truth. Every problem even small I tell her, every situation. But there is no need, she was never controlling! She is so normal mother, even never even strict! In my puberty I had episodes of physosis and she was only one there for me. I only "like" my friends/other family members, don't feel sad if they go, like here is my mom! Because all my love I give is to my mom. It's like anyone would not be important to me, like they come and go. But I forgot one thing. She will go too one day... It was my biggest fear during childhood and these days I'm obsessed with that again. I feel like I could kill myself then. It sound childish but I really feel that way. I'm even afraid. Right now at 24, I feel like she is worried about my deep attachment and problem with separation from her. I still feel like a child and she told me that too. I feel horrible. My sister is nothing like me. I just want normal relation/normal separation, I'm adult. I'm feeling I'm becoming LESS and LESS mature each day. When I was 21/22 I wasn't that childish/regressed, it only get worse now. Maybe it could be symptom, im worried, don't feel well right now. I'm depressed from my early teenage years.