- Jan 31, 2020
I cant find that someone to share life with. Im lonely to the max. I struggle to generate enthusiasm for anything. Ive always been alone, no relationship experience. I meet people but theyre never interested in me beyond friendship if even acquaintence. Im tired of being alone. Im tired of doing everything alone. Going anywhere, waking up, eating, watching a movie, etc. I do everything alone and I just cant enjoy any of it anymore. Is it absurd that I feel so hollow because of it? I dont seek validation from someone. I simply want someone to want to be with me. I just cant form that sort of connection with anyone for some reason. I need someone to love me. I need to feel their warmth next to me. I need someone to let me love them. Am I wrong to feel so worthless? How can I not when no one has ever given me even a second glance? I am unwanted and I dont know why. Is loneliness a valid reason to not want to go on anymore? I know there are others with much worse problems than I. I wonder if this emptiness I feel is valid enough to be so unhappy. I often feel self-indulgent of my sadness. Like I have no right to feel so bad compared to others. I cant help how I feel though. All I know is I need love but I have no one, and its killing me slowly.