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Starting to scare myself



Jan 20, 2015
The idea of ending it all is getting more and more tempting. I want the pain to stop. Now I'm being monitored I have to eat, sleep and not hurt myself. I miss being in control. I want to take control again. Its hurts so much.


Well-known member
Jun 6, 2014
South west
I'm so sorry you are in such a bad place Trustifarian. I have been there myself so can feel your pain. Your signature line is very apt in the circumstances, and made me smile in spite of myself. It may be a cliche, but there is light at the end of the tunnel - at least there was for me.


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Aug 17, 2012
The West Country
I'm sorry you're in so much emotional anguish. :hug1:

I just want to say that if you are seriously close to doing anything dangerous, phone 111.
I don't know if you've ever tried the Samaritans? Some people don't find them much help but personally, it's been good to have someone on the end of the phone when i'm desperate.

Apart from that, all I can really recommend is to keep distracted, keep doing nice things for yourself and if you can - sleep.
And get an appointment with your GP/someone from the mental health team tomorrow? x
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