• Hi. It’s great to see you. Welcome!

    Our forum members are people, maybe like yourself, who experience mental health difficulties or who have had them at some point in their life. Amongst our membership there is a wealth of expertise that has been developed through having to deal with mental health issues.

    We are an actively moderated forum with a team of experienced moderators. We also have a specialist safety team that works extra hard to keep the forum safe for visitors and members.

    Register now to access many more features and forums!

Spiraling into depression again

J

Jules78

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 13, 2011
Messages
309
Location
Bournemouth
I'm really worried about my depression. Although I'm taking my normal meds, same dosage for the last 10 months, I'm starting to feel worse and am panicking. I had a baby 10 months a go, but don't think this is post natal as I've always suffered from depression anyway, I've got worse since going back to work 6 weeks ago. Don't know what to do. I've tried counseling, and the doctor will just say increase meds....I want to get out of this constant spiral of depression, I don't know if I will ever be entirely free of it! Help!
 
Z

ziedite

Well-known member
Joined
Nov 11, 2013
Messages
302
Location
UK
oh you poor thing... it sounds so difficult, particularly if the GP is just suggesting increasing the meds. Have you thought about going for counseling or therapy. From what I know, post natal depression can lag behind the actual birth... so it may be something to consider.
 
Nikita

Nikita

ACCOUNT CLOSED
Joined
Jun 20, 2015
Messages
4,931
Hello Jules, sorry to hear your depression is getting worse!

Your hormones still need time to settle down after having your baby.I think there is every chance you can sort this without resortng to increasing medications or starting different ones.Work may be putting you under stress.

Eat good healthy food, fish, white meat, salads,lots of vegetables and fruit,get your omega 3 and 6 and
also make time to relax, long hot baths, afternoon naps or 20 minutes complete quiet during your lunch break if at work.

People say mindfulness practice helps with the low moods of depression.I am trying it myself and it helps.

From past experience though what helps most is empathy and understanding and support from a close friend or relative that cares.Knowing someone is there for you and you can talk about what hurts and what matters and feel heard is therapy like nothing else.If there is no one like that the next best thing is getting a counselor to fill that role.

I really hope you are able to get through this.I am similar to you in that I've given up on the psychiatrist and CMHT cos all they really can do is increase the meds like you say.

We are here for you and we can listen too when you are down.All the best to you.Hope things improve soon but give yourself more time cos 10 months on from childbirth is still early days especially if you are still breastfeeding and trying to get a good night's sleep still.

Nikitax
 
J

Jules78

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 13, 2011
Messages
309
Location
Bournemouth
Thanks for your reply. I had considered contacting the health visitor as they were concerned in the early days about my depression. I had some complications with the birth, baby all healthy though but do tend to replay it in my mind, but I suppose that's what depression does, I tend to catch myself reflecting on some of the sad/upsetting times in my life, I feel like I'm constantly having an internal battle with myself, part of me saying come on you should be happy with your life, with what you have, but the other side kicks in and makes me feel overwhelmingly sad, if that makes sense, it's def got worse recently.
 
Z

ziedite

Well-known member
Joined
Nov 11, 2013
Messages
302
Location
UK
Don't listen to the "bad" tape that is playing over and over in your mind. You feel what you feel and that is all okay. There is no should in one's feeling. if you feel sad, then you feel sad - don't beat yourself up for anything. Like others have recommended you need to find someone safe and protective to talk to - a friend, a therapist, the health care visitor, anyone here on the forum - to make yourself not be so hard on yourself.
 
J

Jules78

Well-known member
Joined
Apr 13, 2011
Messages
309
Location
Bournemouth
Thanks Nikita. I need to improve my diet, not that it's awful but I comfort eat. I'm still breastfeeding too and I've put on weight since baby so that makes me feel very low. Thank u though for understanding. I feel like a burden and so don't like to mention too often to friends that I'm low. Work is def a pressure, but I also felt low when on maternity leave, I found it very lonely at times. It's such a challenging time with lots of readjustments, and you're right lack of sleep with baby waking still in the night is a killer, especially when you have a full day at work ahead of you!
 
Top