- Jun 24, 2019
- United States
Is anyone else consciencly aware of saliva in their mouth that you have to swallow about every three minutes? You are not supposed to be aware of swallowing your saliva it is suppose to be a natural automatic response but for some reason I became aware and it is hard to get myself back before. It is kind of ruining my life and causing intense anxiety for me. Even when I'm alone I still do it. I also get like these spasms in my throat where I swallow hard without control and sometimes it isn't even saliva I swallowed but air. It has happened to me a few times while talking to people in mid sentence and it is noticeable as I've had people give me weird looks and people can hear me when I swallow on my own. Why is it people can hear you swallow when you are aware but when you aren't aware and swallow subconsciously people can't hear it? Has anyone gotten rid of this? Would anyone talk with me about this? I feel like talking to someone might help. I honestly haven't mentioned this to anyone even though I've had this issue for a very long time. I am tired of hiding it though. There have been a few people who have mentioned that they did get rid of this issue and I've recently begun doing stuff to help and I am just in the beginning stage and I do seem to feel a bit better but it is still there in the back of my mind. I feel weird and it ruins my relationships as I completely avoid relationships because of it even though I wish to have one. I also find this OCD issue to be quite funny. I have laughed myself in tears because I think this is one of the most dumbest and childish obsessions that one can be so afraid of lol. I mean you're literally just swallowing and it won't hurt you or anyone around you but I fear it so bad. That people will hear it and think I'm weird. There have been people who mentioned that they are aware of their blinking and breathing but that doesn't bother me for some reason. I have had a few issues with blinking where I had to blink until it felt right but I have since gotten better. How are some people so unfortunate to have OCD? Somatic OCD is the rarest form so I can't find too many people who have it. I wonder what it is about us that causes us to be aware of this stuff.