- Mar 16, 2021
Last night we went out for a meal with my partners cousin and her partner. Ive met her before so felt relaxed about joining them at the local restaurant. The evening was awful. She dominated the conversation and it was all about people I didn’t know, and also about my partners late wife, who she adored. I ached to check my phone for messages on FB, which is really a big social no no..and then in the end I did. It was the most agonising evening, not being able to join the conversation...and my unrelaxed mind returned by the end of the night. Upon raising the issue with my partner later on, he snapped a cross reply, that maybe I shouldn’t join him next time. I was blown away, as he’s not normally like that. He reminded me of a recent evening spent with an old friend of mine...who didn’t really include him in the conversation. I guess if you don’t suffer from anxiety/depression, you just shrug and say, well, that was a boring evening...but my reaction was....she doesn’t find me interesting, she’s comparing me to my partners late wife and socially I’m crap. I’m now feeling uneasy with my partner...all so ridiculous I know, but I’m still fragile from an incident at beginning of week...love to know how others deal with social situations when you’re feeling low.