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hi, I was just wondering if I'm the only person like this. I really struggle to talk to people and am extremely shy and apart from the few closest people in my life I haven't spoken or mixed with anybody for around 13 years, apart from saying thanks in a shop or something but apart from that I can't remember the last time I had any sort of conversation with somebody, not even online, posting on here is the first time I have attempted to chat to anybody for as long as I can remember. I think my social phobia has just got the best of me and because it's been so long now I have forgotten how to talk to people and it seems an impossible thing, I was never any good at it in the first place. When I have had to talk to people in my life I have bad physical symptoms of anxiety and bad negative thoughts about myself and I'm very quiet and I end up feeling sad. It's a curse because I desperately would like to talk to people but at the same time im desperately scared of doing so and just left feeling lonely I feel like I'm the only person in the world like this.