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SweetBipolar
Well-known member
I am uncomfortable everywhere I go
With anything I do. I have been isolated most of my life. I am
Not used to going out. I am not used to talking to people. Ever since I was little I had a hard time to participate in school. I was extremely shy. Now I am just the same. I am terrified of people. I don’t know how to give eye contact or communicate. I am always nervous and shamed of
Myself. I feel like a horrible weak person. I can’t stick up for myself or others. Sometimes I don’t even want to live** because I feel
Hopeless. How can I survive in life. People don’t understand and just will say get over it but it’s not that easy. I want to scream and cry. I’ve never lived a normal life. I always hid away my whole
Life. My mind tortures my self esteem. It’s always telling me how disgusting and useless I am. I’ve been taking medication and CBT and it helps a little. But no matter what it always comes back to these feelings. I wouldn’t be able to protect
Myself or my family
If someone came because I am too scared and will hide. I feel fragile and weak. I feel like a child who is terrified. I feel there is nothing that can help me because I have to help myself. My mind is messed up. I see myself in a very bad way. I don’t know
How
To be apart of the community and a human.
With anything I do. I have been isolated most of my life. I am
Not used to going out. I am not used to talking to people. Ever since I was little I had a hard time to participate in school. I was extremely shy. Now I am just the same. I am terrified of people. I don’t know how to give eye contact or communicate. I am always nervous and shamed of
Myself. I feel like a horrible weak person. I can’t stick up for myself or others. Sometimes I don’t even want to live** because I feel
Hopeless. How can I survive in life. People don’t understand and just will say get over it but it’s not that easy. I want to scream and cry. I’ve never lived a normal life. I always hid away my whole
Life. My mind tortures my self esteem. It’s always telling me how disgusting and useless I am. I’ve been taking medication and CBT and it helps a little. But no matter what it always comes back to these feelings. I wouldn’t be able to protect
Myself or my family
If someone came because I am too scared and will hide. I feel fragile and weak. I feel like a child who is terrified. I feel there is nothing that can help me because I have to help myself. My mind is messed up. I see myself in a very bad way. I don’t know
How
To be apart of the community and a human.