
Talina
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Hi everyone, I’m a 23 year old girl and I’ve only had one relationship before. Which turn out not that good but I just did it as a way to get away for a while. I’m reading my last year at university before I take a break from my studies. But that’s only if I manage to get my bachelor exam next year.
I still have trouble taking walks outdoors if I don’t have someone with me or drag my bunny out with me. When I see my friends having a social life and dating, I will always feel loneliness. I won’t feel it when I’m alone because it’s easier to ignore.
I get this lonely empty void I try to fill with my pets, even though I get affection and can find a bit of comfort it’s still not the same. I keep all my friends a certain distance from me and only show different masks of myself. It’s like I go into a role and I just play it. But I’m having more and more trouble controlling my feelings.
One comment my little brother said that made me a bit sad when he talked with me: “At least I had you when growing up but you had no one”.
I have quite a lot of distrust towards people and I have a bit more fear towards men. But I trust only my brothers and my dad. I also have a low self-esteem. So dating a person seem to be impossible right now. I also want to be able to find someone to date some day but that will have to be in the future.
I’ve always pushed myself to face my fears but I’m slowly starting to get tired of doing it.
Just writing this and I had to cuddle with my bunny Odin to calm down. Just to not let my fears go too far. My bunny Odin, that always need to handle my aniexty but he always stay around until I calm down. Before I never wrote on forum until I got him, so he’s a major help.

I still have trouble taking walks outdoors if I don’t have someone with me or drag my bunny out with me. When I see my friends having a social life and dating, I will always feel loneliness. I won’t feel it when I’m alone because it’s easier to ignore.
I get this lonely empty void I try to fill with my pets, even though I get affection and can find a bit of comfort it’s still not the same. I keep all my friends a certain distance from me and only show different masks of myself. It’s like I go into a role and I just play it. But I’m having more and more trouble controlling my feelings.
One comment my little brother said that made me a bit sad when he talked with me: “At least I had you when growing up but you had no one”.
I have quite a lot of distrust towards people and I have a bit more fear towards men. But I trust only my brothers and my dad. I also have a low self-esteem. So dating a person seem to be impossible right now. I also want to be able to find someone to date some day but that will have to be in the future.
I’ve always pushed myself to face my fears but I’m slowly starting to get tired of doing it.
Just writing this and I had to cuddle with my bunny Odin to calm down. Just to not let my fears go too far. My bunny Odin, that always need to handle my aniexty but he always stay around until I calm down. Before I never wrote on forum until I got him, so he’s a major help.
