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Lionheart
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I feel such a wreck right now, looking for reasons to stay alive. I can't see a
point to go on as I feel nobody appreciates me or would ever want me.
Ever since primary school I have felt too tall and not particular good looking. Everybody thought I weird because I diden't talk much and I also thought that I had no place talking to anybody especially girls as I was convinced I was a ugly freak. This escalated at high school to the point of ridicule and mental scaring. I still have dreams of going back to high school and getting ridiculed again. This also affected my exam results as I was severly depressed and coulden't see the point in concentrating as I was a slow learning individual. I was always a step behind people in class. I was pushed into going to college where I thought I diden't belong, I forgot my studies and just tried my hardest to fit in and be popular. I feel left college with no skills as again I missed alot of days because of the insults from fellow students about my looks and lack of ability. I did have a few jobs after college but I have been unemployed for a 7 years now and I feel there is no way to get those years back and I have wasted my life.
I honestly don't know what to do now, I see so many happy couples together and I would be lying if I said I diden't get upset when I see something I can never have.
point to go on as I feel nobody appreciates me or would ever want me.
Ever since primary school I have felt too tall and not particular good looking. Everybody thought I weird because I diden't talk much and I also thought that I had no place talking to anybody especially girls as I was convinced I was a ugly freak. This escalated at high school to the point of ridicule and mental scaring. I still have dreams of going back to high school and getting ridiculed again. This also affected my exam results as I was severly depressed and coulden't see the point in concentrating as I was a slow learning individual. I was always a step behind people in class. I was pushed into going to college where I thought I diden't belong, I forgot my studies and just tried my hardest to fit in and be popular. I feel left college with no skills as again I missed alot of days because of the insults from fellow students about my looks and lack of ability. I did have a few jobs after college but I have been unemployed for a 7 years now and I feel there is no way to get those years back and I have wasted my life.
I honestly don't know what to do now, I see so many happy couples together and I would be lying if I said I diden't get upset when I see something I can never have.