So I Just Have to Accept

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sallimae76

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So even though I pay my bills, treat people with kindness, keep myself and house clean, and generally try to be a pleasant person, I have to accept that I have mental illness, because these voices which are VERY SPECIFIC can't control themselves? I have to pretend that I have a problem, when I know someone or something is doing this to me. I know this is tied to sex and sexuality problems and the invisible man, but I have to take the blame. Not fair. I did not ask to be born. I can't help the fact that it doesn't feel good to be used sexually by a man. I can't help the fact that I do not want sex acts from a woman, that I am an old fashioned, heterosexual girl who only wanted one partner in her life. Can't help it that I fell in love three times with a man, and each time I was rejected. I picked up the pieces and moved on. Now I have to take the blame because the invisible man can't control himself.
 
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He clearly has a problem with my virginity and heterosexuality. I can't fight him anymore. Will do what he wants to get these voices to go away.
 
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He clearly has a problem with my virginity and heterosexuality. I can't fight him anymore. Will do what he wants to get these voices to go away.
No!
 
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Darling, I have just had a 175 mile drive back from a funeral of a friend who i and many respected. You have said enough to tell me you respect yourself but are messed up because of your partners request. You showed a glimpse of self respect and build upon that, if he needs more than you as you are, he needs to find someone else who can fulfill his fantasy. Hoonestly hun, don't prostitute your principles, sexuality and yourself for someone you are just not matched with. You will regret it the rest of your life.
 
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He sounds like a controlling prick
 
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He just needs to prove that I actually want these things, even though he thinks I'm ugly and unattractive. He doesn't want me, but wants to dictate what it is he thinks I want.
 
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He just needs to prove that I actually want these things, even though he thinks I'm ugly and unattractive. He doesn't want me, but wants to dictate what it is he thinks I want.
Hun, if you said you would do it as you love him, that's hard for me to have any comment that would make a difference, doing it so he leaves you alone?
 
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Fat, ugly women are supposed to be desperate and allow men to use them easily, or we are suppose to turn gay. That is what he is telling me.
 
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Hun, if you said you would do it as you love him, that's hard for me to have any comment that would make a difference, doing it so he leaves you alone?
He wants me to pay a price. For what, I don't know. I am a poor person, who has very little in life.
 
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Yeah ok so you will get rid of this invisible man slowly but surely when you will have a bit evolved and managed to find a partner and feel comfortable enough with him for this dimension of your life to have becomed past for good. I was in this situation too at some point and everything in the universe evolve including you so do not grant too many attention on it for now on lol ok :)
 
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People are always trying to tell me that it's me. He will do EVERYTHING, except court me the old fashioned way, and take me out on dates, and treat me like a lady. Always trying to tell me that I am emotionally insecure because I wont have sex with strangers and I won't touch women sexually.

I sometimes feel like the gods of this world are envious of the purity between a real male human and a real female human. They have done everything to divide us.

My picture of love is Laura and Almonzo from Little House on the Prairie, or Anne and Gilbert from Anne of Green Gables.

Now he tells me that polymory is normal, and that everyone is bisexual, and that strip clubs, gay clubs and orgies are the norm.
 
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People are always trying to tell me that it's me. He will do EVERYTHING, except court me the old fashioned way, and take me out on dates, and treat me like a lady. Always trying to tell me that I am emotionally insecure because I wont have sex with strangers and I won't touch women sexually.

I sometimes feel like the gods of this world are envious of the purity between a real male human and a real female human. They have done everything to divide us.

My picture of love is Laura and Almonzo from Little House on the Prairie, or Anne and Gilbert from Anne of Green Gables.

Now he tells me that polymory is normal, and that everyone is bisexual, and that strip clubs, gay clubs and orgies are the norm.
It is obvious that you already know these are lies. Why are you associating with an abuser and a liar? It will get worse, not better. Send him away. Not to return.
 
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It is obvious that you already know these are lies. Why are you associating with an abuser and a liar? It will get worse, not better. Send him away. Not to return.
I don't talk to him. He has god like powers. Harasses me with a voice that says "ape" non stop, 24/7. I cried and told him I will do ANYTHING, if he just goes away, but he won't. Just cries "ape" "I'm mad" "burn" and "I can't believe it" non-stop. Drives me crazy. I want to kill myself.
 
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I have a theory that the creator of this universe is a gay man. He will dress up as women and as lesbians, because he wants to believe that everyone is gay, like him. He will make pornography, and pretend that sex acts between women actuality achieve orgasm. He will do any awkward sex act, and pretend that it achieves orgasm, and just will make noises. He hates real human women.
 
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I have a clitoris in my vagina, yet when I google "can not have an orgasm with anal sex" it comes back with the opposite, "anal sex orgasms" . He clearly lives among us, and has positioned himself as a sex expert, even though he does not know what he is doing.
 
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