- Jun 18, 2019
- Tucson, AZ
So even though I pay my bills, treat people with kindness, keep myself and house clean, and generally try to be a pleasant person, I have to accept that I have mental illness, because these voices which are VERY SPECIFIC can't control themselves? I have to pretend that I have a problem, when I know someone or something is doing this to me. I know this is tied to sex and sexuality problems and the invisible man, but I have to take the blame. Not fair. I did not ask to be born. I can't help the fact that it doesn't feel good to be used sexually by a man. I can't help the fact that I do not want sex acts from a woman, that I am an old fashioned, heterosexual girl who only wanted one partner in her life. Can't help it that I fell in love three times with a man, and each time I was rejected. I picked up the pieces and moved on. Now I have to take the blame because the invisible man can't control himself.