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So I hate my life, and everything in it.

Hello513

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Literally hate nearly every aspect of my life. I did not used to, and I do not feel like its my fault.

I got handed crap beyond my control like multiple diseases that ruined my life. Like chron's disease, and a psychotic disorder.

There is almost nothing in my life, most of it beyond my control such as disease I would literally not erase.

I am beginning to question this whole being born thing as something worth celebrating.

So I have had delusional voices in my head, and that is pretty much what I hate more than damn anything. It literally taints everything in life, and makes me want to die.

If I could kill one thing in the entire universe it would be this psychotic disorder. I feel like that is the root of my life being utter crap, and it will never change unless I get rid of this terrible damn affliction. Which I have been trying to do for years.

There are positives to my life. like I am in a BSN program, and doing pretty well. That pretty much ends the list, but it is a big positive.

Everything else is absolute trash, and its the fault of this psychotic disorder.
 
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Well keep trying new therapys and medication. Dont give up. You can get it under control !
 
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Literally hate nearly every aspect of my life. I did not used to, and I do not feel like its my fault.

I got handed crap beyond my control like multiple diseases that ruined my life. Like chron's disease, and a psychotic disorder.

There is almost nothing in my life, most of it beyond my control such as disease I would literally not erase.

I am beginning to question this whole being born thing as something worth celebrating.

So I have had delusional voices in my head, and that is pretty much what I hate more than damn anything. It literally taints everything in life, and makes me want to die.

If I could kill one thing in the entire universe it would be this psychotic disorder. I feel like that is the root of my life being utter crap, and it will never change unless I get rid of this terrible damn affliction. Which I have been trying to do for years.

There are positives to my life. like I am in a BSN program, and doing pretty well. That pretty much ends the list, but it is a big positive.

Everything else is absolute trash, and its the fault of this psychotic disorder.
Im sorry youre going through such a difficult time.....i know whats it s like to haev voices in ur head....i have sz myslef......have you tried clozapine
 
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Im sorry youre going through such a difficult time.....i know whats it s like to haev voices in ur head....i have sz myslef......have you tried clozapine
I am on loxapine a relative of it though I want to get off it and role purely with abilify
 
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