So confused

[topsyturvy]

Feeling really quite confused right now. My body feels like I'm weighed down by lead weights, but I can't switch my mind off. I didn't sleep last night and I don't think I'll have much hope tonight. I've had a broken two hour nap during the day, but both before and after that I have been unable to concentrate on one thing. I'm at present reading a book, watching a documentary and desperately seeking something to do with my hands. I feel like I've been hit by a bus, and yet I'm buzzing. I have work tonight (I work night shifts), but I desperately want to go dancing and generally rampage. I feel like ringing my boss and telling her to stuff her f***ing job, as right now, I have much more interesting things to do. Not good.

 

[DiagnosisBipolar2]

Hi Topsy,

It may be an idea for you to first phone in sick to work. Then contact your carer/ CPN if you have one, or your local mental health crisis team.

 

[topsyturvy]

Hi Topsy,

It may be an idea for you to first phone in sick to work. Then contact your carer/ CPN if you have one, or your local mental health crisis team.

Thanks for your concern

I can't afford to phone in sick to work, I'm on a 6 month probation as it is. I will just try and go in and keep my head down and hope no one notices, though they already think I'm a bit wierd... and I work in a special needs respite.

I don't have a carer I'm afraid, and my crisis team does office hours. I've taken herbal calming tablets and I'm attempting to sit still and forget how frustrated I am, but its not having much of an effect. I'm just pacing and digging my finger nails into my palms, and wanting to punch something. Urggh.

 

[DiagnosisBipolar2]

Thanks for your concern

I can't afford to phone in sick to work, I'm on a 6 month probation as it is. I will just try and go in and keep my head down and hope no one notices, though they already think I'm a bit wierd... and I work in a special needs respite.

I don't have a carer I'm afraid, and my crisis team does office hours. I've taken herbal calming tablets and I'm attempting to sit still and forget how frustrated I am, but its not having much of an effect. I'm just pacing and digging my finger nails into my palms, and wanting to punch something. Urggh.

Well I work in the legal field and even in court no-one has ever been able to give me an accurate definition of "normal" so if peers think you are "weird" sod them!

You should have a 24 hour crisis team in your area. Pm me if you like and i'll look them up for you.

 

[topsyturvy]

Well I work in the legal field and even in court no-one has ever been able to give me an accurate definition of "normal" so if peers think you are "weird" sod them!

You should have a 24 hour crisis team in your area. Pm me if you like and i'll look them up for you.

I will PM you, thanks

I got two hours sleep in the end. I talked rapidly all night and seemed incapable of shutting up. I now feel like I've been hit by a car. My body is so tired, but I still can't disengage.