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yytthh
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i dont know where to start here. so ill start with right now. im sitting here drinking bottles of cider and popping pills called Insidon.
Ive been crying all day and i dont know why.
yesterday my doctor referred me to a psychiatrist.
ive felt this way for years and im sure its more than just depression.
I wanna die because i just feel so pointless and helpless. i just feel i have no control over my life and no-one understands me.
some days im okay though.. and i dont feel depressed.. then i get days like this where i feel i just cant go on. i drink and self-medicate to make myself feel better. I know it can be dangerous but i just dont care.
I also self-harm.
All this has been going on since I was 13.. Im now 20.. and Im starting to wonder if I have something deeper than depression.. like BPD for example.
Does anybody have any advice they can give me? I dont know what to do.
Ive been crying all day and i dont know why.
yesterday my doctor referred me to a psychiatrist.
ive felt this way for years and im sure its more than just depression.
I wanna die because i just feel so pointless and helpless. i just feel i have no control over my life and no-one understands me.
some days im okay though.. and i dont feel depressed.. then i get days like this where i feel i just cant go on. i drink and self-medicate to make myself feel better. I know it can be dangerous but i just dont care.
I also self-harm.
All this has been going on since I was 13.. Im now 20.. and Im starting to wonder if I have something deeper than depression.. like BPD for example.
Does anybody have any advice they can give me? I dont know what to do.