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Im going to freak out. Break everything i own. Scream... Punching my walls...

Im so fucking angry... Im never this angry but its like i burn inside... I want to selfharm.. idc what you all say.. FACK IT!!!!!!!!!
 
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hey justafreind sorry that you are in such a bad way. have you had a good scream as this helps to reduce the internal pressure that is going on inside of you.

can you talk to anyone about this? do you keep things bottled up?
 
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Im so fucking stupid...
Im going Nuts.. im for sure now.. losing my mind.
Losing myself, losing selfcontrole...

I cant do this anymore 😭😭
I need help... No joke.. no cry for attention.. its going bad..
 
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hey just slow it down a little. its tough when in this state to see the wood for the trees. i get you. has anything got you angry?
 
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hey justafreind sorry that you are in such a bad way. have you had a good scream as this helps to reduce the internal pressure that is going on inside of you.

can you talk to anyone about this? do you keep things bottled up?
I am all alone.. even my husband doesn't understand.. I AM FUCKING ALONE..😭

Im always here because here some people understand.. in real life people only want to see the happy me.. no joke.. they letterly did say that..

Now i did fk sh when i was angry. Im so stupid for doing that..
 
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hey just slow it down a little. its tough when in this state to see the wood for the trees. i get you. has anything got you angry?
A lot is making me angry. Mij bff had some serieus trubbel last night. I was there to talk.. het told that he was going to walk away and never come back. Dat je hated his life and so on..

Then he did go sillence on me. For fk 12 hours. Not telling what he was going to do...
I was so affraid he was going to Hurt himself.. didnt sleep for hours.. waiting for him to respons.

Hé got angry with me..

The second i am going away tomorrow. For 7 weeks. I have a lot of anxiety. So much i am trowing up. And above that i have a infection and medication that drives me Nuts..

Welkom in my fk up life
 
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I am all alone.. even my husband doesn't understand.. I AM FUCKING ALONE..😭

Im always here because here some people understand.. in real life people only want to see the happy me.. no joke.. they letterly did say that..

Now i did fk sh when i was angry. Im so stupid for doing that..
Hey that is really sad and lonely place to be. I am so sorry that you are alone. Yeah people can be so shallow.

Its ok to be angry but have you thought of healthier ways to let out that angst like power walking ….reducing you time around these people will go a long way to help. You are not stupid you need to find someone who you can talk to irl.
 
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A lot is making me angry. Mij bff had some serieus trubbel last night. I was there to talk.. het told that he was going to walk away and never come back. Dat je hated his life and so on..

Then he did go sillence on me. For fk 12 hours. Not telling what he was going to do...
I was so affraid he was going to Hurt himself.. didnt sleep for hours.. waiting for him to respons.

Hé got angry with me..

The second i am going away tomorrow. For 7 weeks. I have a lot of anxiety. So much i am trowing up. And above that i have a infection and medication that drives me Nuts..

Welkom in my fk up life
Ah the bf now that sounds difficult and I am sorry. But maybe when he is in a better frame of mind maybe….otherwise some relationships unfortunately do come to an end.

Maybe give the bf some space and time… sounds like you going away will both give you this. Can you talk to the doctor about the medication?
 
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Going to my husbands office. Dont feel save all by myself..

Im in the train crying my eyes out.. Just cant be alone right now..
 
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Gosh I think I got the Mij bff in error I thought you were meaning boyfriend so sorry for getting this wrong.

I really do hope that you are going to be ok.
 
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are you having mood swings. the trouble with being highly anxious is that everything becomes very intense our thoughts and what is happening around us real or percieved.

whats happening tomorrow? no need to answer if you dont want to
 
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Hope this post finds you in a better state of mind Sorry all this is happening to you. You are going to be okay just hang in there things always have a way of working out. I have screamed all day in my head but now I feel okay got everyone fed and life is normal once again takes time. Lots of hugs sent your way
 
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are you having mood swings. the trouble with being highly anxious is that everything becomes very intense our thoughts and what is happening around us real or percieved.

whats happening tomorrow? no need to answer if you dont want to
I'm going to Thailand for 7 weeks. Never left home so long. Never backpacked before
 
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It got worse. I've just came home and half my house has been flooded. With all water and gravel stones. just have a new kitchen of € 15,000. all water damage and the floor is completely broken. 😭😭😭😭
 
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