- May 13, 2019
Yesterday was the last straw. I stayed up all night on the Internet browser that's on my PS4 untill 10:00 am. I usually get sleepy around 5 AM and wakeup around 2pm to shower. The day before I hadn't showered so yesterday morning I was sticky with leftover body grub and sweat. I never used to be like this, never would go a day without showering. Recently I go 2 days max and I'm so ashamed. The worst part is that I still felt wide awake at 10:00 AM and thought "WTH am I doing to my body?". I promised myself I was going to go on a morning jog but when the time came I wouldn't budge. I won't go into details on why I'm depressed because that's a whole other can of worms. Tonight I took a melitonin at around 10:00 PM-ish, had some shut eye and woke up again. I'm giving myself permission to stay up IF I failed to fall asleep. Going cold turkey is not an option right now. Does anyone else have similiar problems during bad times?