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I dont, I'm on disability assistance
I was training to be an architect when I became unwell in my twenties
I dont think I would do architecture now
I should have done painting instead

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I completely understand. In have been on disability, but I don't believe I am disabled however. The supernatural creatures that live among us have ruined my life. It is partly their fault, and partly that I should have went into a different career. Education, or something more people based, not paperwork based. As I said I am trying to get a live in position at a college. I like to counsel young people, especially girls. I am good at conflict resolution and teaching values.
 
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I know what you mean
I would not be disabled , if the people around me sorted themselves out !

so how does that work where you live
what moves do you have to make to get the position you are after ?

I can imagine you are good at conflict resolution and teaching values

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Well most positions require experience, and a master's degree in an area that I don't have. I'm just applying anyway, and hoping something works out. I have applied at colleges and boarding schools. I am struggling so much in my current job. I want to quit. I really don't want to practice law anymore.
 
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so you're staying in your current job at the moment
because of the money ?
can you reduce the hours ?
then you could do some volunteering
in your field of choice to show them how good you are

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I moved across country from NY to Arizona to take this job in May. I thought that I needed a change of scenery, but what I really need is a different industry. If I quit, I will be rolling the dice to see if I get anything before my savings runs out. I don't think it is possible to volunteer in the industry. They will have to take me because I have experience being an Resident Advisor as a student, and because of my conflict resolution skills as an attorney.
 
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thing is when I feel suicidal
I try to make use of that in a ' nothing left to lose ' way
its worth taking the risk
to get what I want

thats how I came to go paragliding
it was terrifying, but I thought to myself ' do I want to be here anyway '
and then I flew !

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I used to be an adventurer. I used to go white water rafting when I lived in Colorado. Hang gliding is on my bucket list. Is that like paragliding?
 
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wow , and your not very old yet either ...
im not sure I would go rafting or hang gliding
because it involves a lot of concentration

whereas with paragliding I had an instructor in charge
like when we flew over a cliff last year

I also think hang gliding sounds more scary !

but each to their own
some people like scary fun fair rides
ive done some of those, I'm not going again !

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I hope I get my adventurous spirit back. The next place I move to, I hope I will make friends that enjoy camping frequently.
 
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oh yes ive done loads of camping !
I used to go the green camps
where we did tree hugging and other alternative workshops
drumming and stuff

that was before I started paragliding

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Zoe, thank you for talking to me. I'm not going to be able to write anymore tonight because of these voices. The invisible maker of this world thinks I'm a toy and repeats "I'm an ape" "burn" "I can't believe it" and "I'm mad" to me thousands of times per day. He is a misogynist that sickens me. We women need to become Gods.
 
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k Sally thanks

I think these voices are some kind of a defence
against what happened
like I keep thinking I need so shower again
when have already showered

try to write down the opposite
e.g. I am human

lets pick it up again tomorrow then

blessings for the night x x x
 
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Zoe,

I just need for you to give me the benefit of the doubt that I know what is going on in my life. It is the maker. He has revealed himself to me many times. Family members and strangers have commented on seeing me do things or say things to others in my private time. He can't deal with the fact that he attempted to sexually abuse me, can't deal with my celibacy and heterosexuality. The creation is more righteous than the creator.
 
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hi Salli , yes OK then I believe that is happening for you

hmmm maybe that is happening to me as well
I had not thought of it like that
why I keep thinking I need to wash

maybe tomorrow I will tell you what happened to me in the past

will you be able to get any sleep ?

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