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Sleeping issues



New member
Aug 15, 2014
My entire life I've had sleeping issues, but recently it's getting incredibly difficult to deal with. It usually takes me around 2-3 hours to fall asleep on a good night, I constantly toss and turn and get very easily agitated unless I've someone asleep next to me. I'll be incredibly tired throughout the day, but as soon as I get into bed I'm wide awake. I've a history of depression, but it's never been specifically diagnosed into a category.

Usually, the paranoia I feel before bed is tolerable (or should I say I've grown accustomed to it) but recently it's getting out of hand. I get these very realistic feelings of being covered in bugs and bitten by them, not a specific kind and I'm not particularly scared of any. I'll end up scratching myself, and when that doesn't help I'll scratch harder. I've drawn blood before, it's mainly over my face too. I've been told I do this in my sleep too, sometimes I make muffled crying noises and signs of distress. I've been told I cry out, punch and kick (nothing to the extreme and it varies from night to night). I was just wondering if anyone else has experienced this? As much as I want to go to my doctor and will eventually I don't particularly want sleeping pills. I've heard no end of bad stories and my old antidepressants changed my personality and I simply did not care for anything, the definition itself of walking zombie. I've tried many different forms of calming music, ambient sounds, reading, drinking warm milk, etc but nothings aided falling to sleep.

I'm not sure if it's an underlying mental illness? I get extreme mood swings, from feeling okay to very suicidal - these periods can last for weeks where I feel hopeless and worthless. Through these stages I find it difficult to socialize and my motivation deteriorates into nothing. I wasn't sure if this could also be affecting my sleep pattern? I appreciate any feedback, and sorry for the essay!
Toasted Crumpet

Toasted Crumpet

Feb 11, 2013
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Did your sleep problems precede the depression and paranoia you describe? Lack of sleep can affect you mentally, but also vice versa. It's not normal to feel suicidal and so on, it might be worth going to see a doctor to see if they can offer you some sort of help. it may be that sleeping pills are not the right way to go but if they could help with your moods and so on your sleep may improve.

Sounds like you are having nightmares as well, that's not good. :hug1:

The bug crawling sensation I'm not sure, sometimes that can have a physical cause (not actual bugs)

Formication - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

but could also be part of a tactile hallucination.