- Aug 12, 2020
My sister told me by email she is blocking me from connecting with her. This is all so silly just because I have a problem with anxiety and feel panicky when people are going to come here including her. She didn't understand the way I am. Has she tried? No so as Doris Day sang What ever will be will be the furture not ours to see. I'm sick sick sick of being hurt by people especially my so called family. Don't want to say bad things about them but really they are useless. I keep hanging on but think it's useless really. Everyday is hell for me. Tell me is this my fault that I got this way? Is it my fault that I come from a family of drug addicts and alcoholics? Is it my fault I witnessed horrible things in my family? Is it my fault I was emotionally abused. Is it my fault I saw my father beat my mother and beat my brother? Is it my fault I was born? I'm sick of it all now all I have is 2 sisters who don't understand and don't care. Sorry, I'm very upset but you know what? What goes around comes around I really pity them. You are my friends, please don't advise me to have therapy been down that road too many times I'm done with it.