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TerraLynn

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I was sexually molested as a child (ages 7-10). I did not tell anyone until I was 17 years old and I am now 22. I am still having alot of anxiety and trouble sleeping though. I also began injuring myself and have changed my eating habits for the worse. I just don't understand how it is taking me this long to recover. I did go to therapy for awhile. When I completed that, my boyfriend proposed and we got married in September. Could this trigger any PTSD feelings? My therapist did mention that I might need to come back after marriage, but I don't understand why and I'm ashamed to tell my husband I'm repeating the past. HELP
 
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I was abused as a child also - I am now 38 and still having therapy.

Maybe you need to revisit therapy, don;t be ashamed - it was never your fault

KS
 
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I figured someone would say therapy. I had a very hard time with it in the past though. I find it to almost be more triggering and I am not sure I can handle that with how often I've been self-injuring lately. Maybe I should though, because my drinking has become a bit extensive as it has in the past. I'm just worn out at this point. Sorry for all the venting.
 
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Sorry you are struggling. I'm almost 50 and was abused from the age of 7-15. I've had some cbt but didn't really start talking about it until the last couple of sessions. I found it very difficult to do and in some ways felt worse for having done it. I'm not always able to even sleep in the same bed as my husband who is very understanding and every night as soon as i get into bed i get panic attacks. Don't know what to suggest to you sorry, but am here to talk if you need to. I would like to get to the point of having some specialist help with the abuse rather than just straight cbt. I know there are certain centres that you can attend but my nearest one is too far away for me and there is help online but i can't even face reading about it at the moment. Sorry i've not been of much help but do understand where you are coming from.
Take care
Tannith
 
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Sorry i forgot to say i do think marriage can trigger the ptsd. I think when you are in a safe loving relationship your brain somehow feels safe enough to release some or all of these awfull thoughts and memories, that could be why your therapist suggested you may need help after getting married. As i said my husband is very understanding but it has taken it's toll on us and he is not as able to support me as much as he used to. He has joined a carers group himself a few months ago after many years of no support for himself, I don't know if your hubby could or would feel comfortable doing the same. My husband has found it helpfull. If you can get further therapy i would do. Like you i have trouble getting to and staying asleep and it also affects my appetite. I am managing not to self-harm at the moment but i have in the past.
Take care
Tannith
 
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