Now that I have skipped three days medication (including last night being a fourth), I had a few problems while in Birmingham, including hallucinations of all four senses that I have ever had hallucinated (sight - a car drove through a wall, and a building appeared out of nowhere, smell - chlorine in Birmingham, touch - the pain of the bullet my son shot at me returned in great force I almost fell over, and sound - I heard someone call my name just behind me, and when I turned around there was no-one there). I have never had hallucinations of all four senses in a day, let alone five hours. I think the stress of keeping Purim is getting to me, because I fear my mother will not let me keep it. In fact, I almost felt like telling the Rabbi to get me to the psychiatric ward of a hospital in B'ham. I also had a bit of a bad night last night, that I just slumped into a corner and tried to talk to my son rationally. My friends noticed this and practically ordered me to join in the party that was going on, which I did, which was a big enough distraction.
I know, through thought invasion, that in my son's universe the king of Prussia has successfully conquered Germany, forcing the German armies to surrender in droves and forcing the German armies to become a part of the Prussian armies. I already have ordered a counter attack, through my voice and not my thoughts (because in his universe I rule over the Earth and all her dependent colonies, the state being called the Imperial Republic of Earth, of which I am emperor). The French, British and Camelard (in other words Yorkist) armies are mobilising at Strasbourg, and the Russian armies are mobilising on the Belorussian border, ready to deal the enemy a crushing blow.
I haven't told my case manager, my OT, yet, and I am afraid that she will suggest over-medicating me, and I don't want to tell my mother because she will become upset. My friends, and you, I have told about the experiences I had in Birmingham, and they were determined that I not remain alone at least that night. I have very supportive friends, which is lucky for me.
