i started drinking after my emotions shut down. i didnt know what was wrong at first, it was like the world was black and white instead of color. then i realized my emotions were gone. which is really hard, especially at first because your not adapted to it yet. its like a loved one dying, suddenly there is just this big gap in your life. something large is missing. takes time to fill it in with coping mechanisms. drinking is a common initial outlet. its weird but alcohol seems to almost simulate emotion a bit or something. thats part of the reason people are drunk calling their X's at 3am. it seems to enhance or simulate that emotion feeling. eventually i quit because it was interfering with my allergy meds. and my allergies are hassle. i started eating ice cream every day at the same time i used to drink. which helped me get off it.