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SH after 4 years 'clean'.

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FiD19

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Life has thrown some serious sh*t at me the last few years during recovery and I think I have just reached my tipping point. Self-harmed for the first time today in years. Haven't felt this low or lost for around 9 years, feel like I'm suffocating and I didn't know how else to breathe for a moment
 
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FiD19

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Thank you, it's not been easy.

I watched my 4 day old God daughter pass away last year and I've spiraled since then. I was everyone's rock at the time and tried to just carry on but it's really screwed with my head, I see it all the time, over and over.
Since then my mental health has just gotten worse, resulting in my girlfriend leaving me last week because she doesn't love me anymore and can't deal with my anxiety and wants someone more confident who she feels can protect her.

She was the one person I could be myself around and now I don't even have that, not that it clearly did any good. So I feel lost and I don't really know myself right now. I used to self-harm to feel something but this time it was the opposite, I just needed everything to pause for a moment to catch a breath, everything feels so chaotic and I feel like I'm slowly screwing everything up
 
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