
lal10
Well-known member
Hi guys
I'm going to be frank here so I hope I don't offend anyone, you were warned!
Ok so like many of us i'm sure my sex life is not the best. I don't like myself so don't feel like it a lot of the time and feel guilty about my poor OH. But sometimes, and I really can't work out any sort of pattern, irrespective of how I'm feeling I'll have periods where I'm up for it. I've not been feeling great recently but for some reason I've felt more like a bit of fun between the sheets, as I said I can't see a pattern, it seems odd to feel down and horny but that's just how it is! It makes me feel closer to my OH as for weeks or months it can seem like we have no connection then my er...lady garden (lol!) gets a sudden burst of energy and I feel better about our relationship and close to him again. We did the deed twice on Sunday, then attempted it on Monday night but he got some sort of random muscle spasm in his neck which put a stop to it mid thrust and caused him to have a headache for the night and the rest of the next day. I felt like a bit last night but he didn't seem bothered then I wake up this morning to find he had been pleasuring himself while I had a lie in, I saw the browsing history and he hadn't done a great clean up job (sorry!). I know he uses internet porn, i'm not a prude and after many years of being the lone woman at work I know it's just what men do and I can't blame him when I'm off the boil for a while, but I find it hard to come to terms with when he doesn't even try to get with me, especially when I am up for it, then uses porn? I've been having dreams about him cheating on me for a while, during these dreams he is horrible to me too, I am not paranoid about him cheating at all as I know he is not so don't worry about it consciously. The dreams started before my current horny state so I can't put them down to the rejection and porn usage either. He says he still loves me and still fancies me but his behaviour says something different. I feel confused and rejected
I'm going to be frank here so I hope I don't offend anyone, you were warned!
Ok so like many of us i'm sure my sex life is not the best. I don't like myself so don't feel like it a lot of the time and feel guilty about my poor OH. But sometimes, and I really can't work out any sort of pattern, irrespective of how I'm feeling I'll have periods where I'm up for it. I've not been feeling great recently but for some reason I've felt more like a bit of fun between the sheets, as I said I can't see a pattern, it seems odd to feel down and horny but that's just how it is! It makes me feel closer to my OH as for weeks or months it can seem like we have no connection then my er...lady garden (lol!) gets a sudden burst of energy and I feel better about our relationship and close to him again. We did the deed twice on Sunday, then attempted it on Monday night but he got some sort of random muscle spasm in his neck which put a stop to it mid thrust and caused him to have a headache for the night and the rest of the next day. I felt like a bit last night but he didn't seem bothered then I wake up this morning to find he had been pleasuring himself while I had a lie in, I saw the browsing history and he hadn't done a great clean up job (sorry!). I know he uses internet porn, i'm not a prude and after many years of being the lone woman at work I know it's just what men do and I can't blame him when I'm off the boil for a while, but I find it hard to come to terms with when he doesn't even try to get with me, especially when I am up for it, then uses porn? I've been having dreams about him cheating on me for a while, during these dreams he is horrible to me too, I am not paranoid about him cheating at all as I know he is not so don't worry about it consciously. The dreams started before my current horny state so I can't put them down to the rejection and porn usage either. He says he still loves me and still fancies me but his behaviour says something different. I feel confused and rejected
