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Severe death anxiety and derealisation (I think) - how to mitigate/reduce?

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LPalmer

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Recently joined this forum. I'm a little bit concerned about detailing my particular anxiety as only last night it resulted in a panic attack so bad my hands and face temporarily seized up. But it's been eating away at me for the last two weeks, intensifying over the last weekend.

As best I can explain it, just existing at the moment feels like a strange, unreal 'prison', or a dream. There this this sense of inescapability, related to the inescapability of death. The worst thought is probably that nothing I do to improve my mood will actually alter the fact I'm going to die. In a way, it's not so much death itself that scares me as what it means for my life as it is being lived. I'm not religious, although I have sometimes found some peace in Einstein's spacetime theories (that there is a sense, albeit an abstract one, that our lives are 'eternal' in a timeless way)

Because I have OCD, my brain is like a dog with a bone with this issue. It almost never lets go. And none of this is helped by the lockdown scenario - life makes more intuitive sense, and these huge great anxieties seem less important, in normal times.

Is a therapist the best person to speak to about this? I need some novel ways of challenging my brain on this issue. Reading about others with similar anxieties is only helpful to a point - what I really need is advice.
 
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karl7

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hi lpalmer....welcome to the forums....iread your post but am unsure of exactly what is your question....i haev anxiety (social) myself and it screws my life around.....i know OCD's too are a big pain in the a*ss......are you searching for some meaning in life.....
 
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LPalmer

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Thanks, yes, these issues are meaning-related. They're closely related to my OCD - my brain's inability to settle and be content, the constant searching for answers, not being content with the ones I come up with, doubt, etc. I have medication (sertraline) to deal with some of the associated feelings I get from these thoughts, but have yet to really tackle the thoughts themselves.
 
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