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Attempts are good! Be proud of yourself for even trying. To be honest in the beginning of my anxiety I couldn't quite get myself out there either. In fact in the very beginning I couldn't even think about leaving the house. I remember for a month I was stuck in just two rooms even. I can't remember how exactly I got out of it the first time....I'm thinking just time and understanding of what was happening. I'm at the point now because of a lot of trial and error, perseverance, family support, and the sheer drive to not let the anxiety win. You get to a point where you're no longer afraid, just angry. The anger helped to overcome it. I had a massive breakdown two weeks ago as I stupidly went off meds but I'm back on them now and already feeling ok and back on my feet again because I've learnt the anxiety process and what works for me to get through it. You will too I promise.
True, but it would be fun for once if I had some succes and actually see improvement for a long time+for ever.

The only thing where I’m so afraid of is that I’ve been in this situation for so long and it seems like it’s getting worse. I’m afraid that there is a point that it is too late and it may be now.. I’ve been dealing with all these unpleasant and fearfull thoughts for 3 years now. Especially the last 6 months are very painful. I’ve not seen my close family members and friends for such a long time.
 
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actually ive been in and out of therapy
for about 30 years !

ive always found it very exciting
opening up comes naturally to me most of the time
but I got very lost in it
and looking back I saw some pretty whacky therapists actually

I think its still the case
that you can set up a therapy practice
without being qualified in the UK ...

things got better after I started doing groups
because then I could compare notes
with other therapy clients

and it would have been useful
to have a place like this for the same reason

my advice to new clients
is to take it slowly
not to offer all of yourself at once

and then assess how you feel about their feedback

:grouphug:
 
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True, but it would be fun for once if I had some succes and actually see improvement for a long time+for ever.

The only thing where I’m so afraid of is that I’ve been in this situation for so long and it seems like it’s getting worse. I’m afraid that there is a point that it is too late and it may be now.. I’ve been dealing with all these unpleasant and fearfull thoughts for 3 years now. Especially the last 6 months are very painful. I’ve not seen my close family members and friends for such a long time.
I understand totally believe me I do. I've had it for about 20 years on and off so I know 3 years is frustrating but I would still consider that beginning stages. I know it feels never ending for you right now but it does get better. I used to lay in bed crying all night thinking that I would be stuck like that forever and never get through it. Bit you will. As awful as anxiety is, and no matter how crazy it makes you feel, it's nothing more than a disorder of your nervous system. It's a silly combination of negative thoughts and adrenaline. All of the scary symptoms are your fight or flight response. Adrenaline. Nothing more. Yes anxiety does tend to get worse before it gets better, but you will get there! Set one goal for each day. No matter how big or how small. Beating anxiety is a series of baby steps over time so don't be hard on yourself for not beating it "fast enough" it takes time.
 
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I understand totally believe me I do. I've had it for about 20 years on and off so I know 3 years is frustrating but I would still consider that beginning stages. I know it feels never ending for you right now but it does get better. I used to lay in bed crying all night thinking that I would be stuck like that forever and never get through it. Bit you will. As awful as anxiety is, and no matter how crazy it makes you feel, it's nothing more than a disorder of your nervous system. It's a silly combination of negative thoughts and adrenaline. All of the scary symptoms are your fight or flight response. Adrenaline. Nothing more. Yes anxiety does tend to get worse before it gets better, but you will get there! Set one goal for each day. No matter how big or how small. Beating anxiety is a series of baby steps over time so don't be hard on yourself for not beating it "fast enough" it takes time.
I hope not.. I feel like it can’t be worse then this at least. I’m 20 years old and for me 3 years is a long time. Before that time I already had a lot problems focussed on my mental health as well, but no disorders.. 20 years of suffering of anxiety is something I can’t think of myself. You sound like you’re totally at peace with yourself right now and that’s something I admire. At least if you have to name 1 positive thing all of this makes you a lot smarter right?

One thing which bothers me is that I can’t cry and let things out. Because of my anxiety my other emotions feel numb.

I find it hard to set the goals right now. I don’t anymore what I want, because I lack of going outside and experience things in the real world. Yes, you gained more knowledge about yourself then someone who have never had a downfall like this, but there is also something you lack. At least, that’s why I think.
 
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actually ive been in and out of therapy
for about 30 years !

ive always found it very exciting
opening up comes naturally to me most of the time
but I got very lost in it
and looking back I saw some pretty whacky therapists actually

I think its still the case
that you can set up a therapy practice
without being qualified in the UK ...

things got better after I started doing groups
because then I could compare notes
with other therapy clients

and it would have been useful
to have a place like this for the same reason

my advice to new clients
is to take it slowly
not to offer all of yourself at once

and then assess how you feel about their feedback

:grouphug:
Pffoe 30 years.

I’ve only had one therapist yet. I’ve been there for 2 years or so. But the stupid part is that she was actually someone who only studied for people with addictions.. I’ve none. The one I’m waiting for now I fully specialized in anxiety, so I hope that I’ll learn a lot from it. I did anxiety therapy with the one before, but she was just following a book and personal questions she couldn’t really answer.

The mental health care sucks here as well in the Netherlands. I was on a waitinglist for 7 months and I still don’t have heard a single word from there company. Luckily I’ve found one where I can start next month.

Thanks for your advice:) That’s even something I wasn’t really thinking of. I’m now just scared of having panic attacks all the time.
 
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I hope not.. I feel like it can’t be worse then this at least. I’m 20 years old and for me 3 years is a long time. Before that time I already had a lot problems focussed on my mental health as well, but no disorders.. 20 years of suffering of anxiety is something I can’t think of myself. You sound like you’re totally at peace with yourself right now and that’s something I admire. At least if you have to name 1 positive thing all of this makes you a lot smarter right?

One thing which bothers me is that I can’t cry and let things out. Because of my anxiety my other emotions feel numb.

I find it hard to set the goals right now. I don’t anymore what I want, because I lack of going outside and experience things in the real world. Yes, you gained more knowledge about yourself then someone who have never had a downfall like this, but there is also something you lack. At least, that’s why I think.
Yes from what you've said I think you're in the worst of it now. I didn't mean to discourage you by saying I've had it for 20 years. It's not been a constant state of anxiety for that long. It comes and goes but in all honesty most of the time I live a totally normal life. I have anxiety "wobbles" for a few days but I know how to get out of it now so I'm up and going again in no time. Medication has helped immensely with that. You said your meds aren't much help? Might be worth seeing your Dr for a medication review. Once you find the right medication and the right dose it really does make a huge difference. I had a horrible breakdown two weeks ago but it's because I stopped taking the meds so it was my own fault. I went through numb periods when I couldn't cry too, but that's because when anxiety is bad it consumes everything else.
 
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Yes from what you've said I think you're in the worst of it now. I didn't mean to discourage you by saying I've had it for 20 years. It's not been a constant state of anxiety for that long. It comes and goes but in all honesty most of the time I live a totally normal life. I have anxiety "wobbles" for a few days but I know how to get out of it now so I'm up and going again in no time. Medication has helped immensely with that. You said your meds aren't much help? Might be worth seeing your Dr for a medication review. Once you find the right medication and the right dose it really does make a huge difference. I had a horrible breakdown two weeks ago but it's because I stopped taking the meds so it was my own fault. I went through numb periods when I couldn't cry too, but that's because when anxiety is bad it consumes everything else.
I hope it can only go better from now on. In 3 years I almost had no day without anxiety or gloomy thoughts. It has been really constantly in my situation. I even don’t know anymore how feeling good really is anymore. My self esteem is also super low because of this and I think that is keeping everything on a constant level as well.

I respect your discission about taking medicines. I took prozac for half a year. I’ve read a interesting book about medication and depression (I think depression and anxiety are very much the same in many ways). It’s called lost connections from Johan Harri. I think the only thing that could help for me maybe is something like Oxazepam or Xanax. The problem is with anything which does something on my mind is that it’s making me very restless en in many occasions even more anxious. One of my triggers has been taking mushrooms where I’ve had a badtrip on. I still feel stupid and ashamed by taking it, but I can’t go back in time. When I’ve got new help it’s definitely going to be something we are going to talk about.

I agree with you on that last part. It’s like a pie with 6 pieces and when you’re going to a rough time there is only anxiety left and no room for something else. I’m also a (young) man, so maybe that’s why I’m less sensitive for crying. But I feel like there are a lot of emotions which I can’t get out of my system. I think this is increasing my overal stresslevel as wel.
 
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