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Kieran

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For a long long time now I’ve been self harming on and off ,sometimes it last for weeks and months and then sometimes it last for 3 days ,I’ve been going to a psychologist to get help with my anxiety which has been going well,I also had ocd which was a terrible time in my life because of the amount of stress it put upon me ,draining me every single day,I managed to defeat my ocd with my psychologist and now it’s nowhere near as bad as it used to be.
So why did I come here? Well 30 minutes ago I just argued with my mum about something that completely blew up more than it should have.And so we’re arguing normally ,nobody is swearing yet.And then she tells me “I’m gonna cancel your appointment” (with my psychologist) I’m screaming to her “no!!” we argued for so long that we missed my appoint ment and then she started to argue with my dad ,she gets really made when she argues with him because she feels like I’m the one that always makes them argue (not true!).She gets really mad and runs up the stairs and says to me “Are you happy now..” going on and on screaming ,I was just ignoring it so she goes back down and starts yelling again so then I look down the stairs and she tells me “I’ve cancelled the psychologist for good now!” “YOU CAN GO AND HARM YOURSELF NOW ,and kill yourself ,I don’t care anymore ,do what u want ,just go and die!” She told me to die several times and to harm myself several times.
Now I haven’t been self harming for about a month and a half , which is a big thing for me ,I still think about it but I just don’t do it .However ,now my anxiety is increasing alottt! And I’m freaking out because without my psychologist I cannot do it! I’m not ready to stop with her ,I really can’t go back to harming again ,it will ruin everything right now! And I just really feel like doing it after what she said ,I should just go and do it
 
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Roseessa

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Could you call the psychologist yourself and make sure you still have the appointment?
 
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MissPink

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For a long long time now I’ve been self harming on and off ,sometimes it last for weeks and months and then sometimes it last for 3 days ,I’ve been going to a psychologist to get help with my anxiety which has been going well,I also had ocd which was a terrible time in my life because of the amount of stress it put upon me ,draining me every single day,I managed to defeat my ocd with my psychologist and now it’s nowhere near as bad as it used to be.
So why did I come here? Well 30 minutes ago I just argued with my mum about something that completely blew up more than it should have.And so we’re arguing normally ,nobody is swearing yet.And then she tells me “I’m gonna cancel your appointment” (with my psychologist) I’m screaming to her “no!!” we argued for so long that we missed my appoint ment and then she started to argue with my dad ,she gets really made when she argues with him because she feels like I’m the one that always makes them argue (not true!).She gets really mad and runs up the stairs and says to me “Are you happy now..” going on and on screaming ,I was just ignoring it so she goes back down and starts yelling again so then I look down the stairs and she tells me “I’ve cancelled the psychologist for good now!” “YOU CAN GO AND HARM YOURSELF NOW ,and kill yourself ,I don’t care anymore ,do what u want ,just go and die!” She told me to die several times and to harm myself several times.
Now I haven’t been self harming for about a month and a half , which is a big thing for me ,I still think about it but I just don’t do it .However ,now my anxiety is increasing alottt! And I’m freaking out because without my psychologist I cannot do it! I’m not ready to stop with her ,I really can’t go back to harming again ,it will ruin everything right now! And I just really feel like doing it after what she said ,I should just go and do it
I feel for you, I really do!

If only people could understand how delicate and how careful we have to think when we have OCD going around and around in our minds people would see how important it is for us to be stress free from arguments etc.

My mum also does not understand I have told her time and time again and she still doesn't have a clue what I have to go through. She is not interested and that does bother me, it seems to be all about her, she is a strong minded women and sometimes I find her too strong for me to be around, her energy is never positive or good to be around.

Maybe print something out for your mum to read, like something to do with OCD? so she could listen, you don't need that head stress crap from her. She obviously doesn't have a clue what you are going through!
 
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TulipIceCream

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Wow your mom should not have said those awful things to you! Since you are the patient I believe you are the one in control of whether you go or not. If I were you I would call the psychologist and make sure to reschedule. It would also be good to tell the psychologist what happened with your mother, what she said and how she is trying to keep you from going to your appointment and that you want to continue being seen.
 
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