- Dec 17, 2014
I've been self harming since I was 12 years old... In more ways than one. There are so many different forms of it and I've tried multiple. I don't do it because I want attention, I generally cover it up so no one notices. I don't do it because I want to die, I guess I just do it because it's a relief that I feel something. I have spent so many years numbing myself to emotion it's just nice to feel something whether it be physical or emotional. Now, generally when I self harm I do it in a physical way. But when I start to feel emotion I do it in an emotional way. Maybe as punishment?? I'll self sabotage to the point where I push everyone away. But there has been this one certain person who just won't let me push them away so with them the cycle is just never-ending. I want to let go of this madness so I can love them and be loved properly. But... How do I do it???