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Self harm in so many ways...

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DahliaDoll

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I've been self harming since I was 12 years old... In more ways than one. There are so many different forms of it and I've tried multiple. I don't do it because I want attention, I generally cover it up so no one notices. I don't do it because I want to die, I guess I just do it because it's a relief that I feel something. I have spent so many years numbing myself to emotion it's just nice to feel something whether it be physical or emotional. Now, generally when I self harm I do it in a physical way. But when I start to feel emotion I do it in an emotional way. Maybe as punishment?? I'll self sabotage to the point where I push everyone away. But there has been this one certain person who just won't let me push them away so with them the cycle is just never-ending. I want to let go of this madness so I can love them and be loved properly. But... How do I do it???
 
Purple Chaos

Purple Chaos

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I'm sorry to hear of your struggles. Are you getting any kind of professional help, support or therapy at all?

I know it's not easy; self harming can quickly become a vicious circle of comfort, relief, guilt and self-loathing and it's not always easy to break but, it's certainly not impossible. You've made a big step by realising you want to change and that, I think, will help you.

I am so glad that your certain someone has not let you push them away. They sound like a very special person and obviously think that you are special too.
 
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DahliaDoll

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Yes I go to my psychiatrist once a month and I see my therapist once a week.
I haven't self harmed in a couple of weeks now, I'm going strong... I'm hoping I can leave it in 2014 and have a fresh start in 2015 and be healthier than I have been.
 
Purple Chaos

Purple Chaos

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Yes I go to my psychiatrist once a month and I see my therapist once a week.
I haven't self harmed in a couple of weeks now, I'm going strong... I'm hoping I can leave it in 2014 and have a fresh start in 2015 and be healthier than I have been.
That's great to hear! I like the idea of a New Year a new start. It sounds as though you're doing well. Stay strong :hug1:
 
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