self diagnosis

[stupid1]

self diagnosis is not a good hingb but i bekive i have boirderline personality disorder among a few others ?????!!!
I am self harming quite badly at the moment and have been hospitalised twice recently (which will not happen again) !!!
i have been saying to mysel yhay there is nothing wrong with mer when i know therer is and saying this tio hospital saff too i thought i had cnvinced them lol
i looked up BPD and uit is like REading about me and me life in black and white, this has been gong on for many years and i cannot cope anymore how do i tell them this is what i have ?

Do you ever feel on the brink of something 24/7?
the poilice kicked my door in and i am nnot happy with that, i have a very a;large bruise on my leg because i was battoned what can o do about this type of treatment?

does anyone know anout splitting as this is a very importaant part ofr4 me
i dont fel very good tonight at all.

stupid1 xxx

 

[stupid1]

anyone please

anyone please?

 

[quality factor]

I have BPD and Borderline UK was a site recommended to me by my Consultant; have a read it may help you out.
QF.

 

[bupanishad2012]

Self-Harm

As the old saying goes, "We are our own worst enemies." I hope you can get your life together and I do have much concern for you!
With much Compassion!

 

[stupid1]

thanks

thanks for the replies.
i tried to get on the borderline uk site but my pc keeps telling me the site has a virus ??

 

[icetsunami]

When looking at criteria for PD you can fit almost anyone to them! I know what you mean though because I tick 95% of the boxes.
I would suggest that you try and get referred for CBT or something similar by your GP. Some mental health services drop PD like a hot potato after a short while over treatment issues. I not sure that there is a particular medicative treatment for the disorder as a whole though you can treat some symptoms.
Hope things turn out well for you. Get support from like minded people when possible as it helps. Good luck.

 

[quality factor]

thanks for the replies.
i tried to get on the borderline uk site but my pc keeps telling me the site has a virus ??

Any luck with Borderline UK yet? There is usually no problem with it.
The diagnosis of a personality disorder is sometimes quite contentious and BPD in particular has been a controversial one.
It seems that a combination of medication and a talking therapy is a standard treatment approach at the moment for BPD, but there are quite a few recognised personality disorders with similar symtoms. Of course it is up to a professional to make an accurate diagnosis based on what you present with.

 

[stupid1]

borderline

i still cant get on the website but thanks for info anyway
i have an app tomorrow not really sure who its with, i was diagnosed several years ago with a pd but they werent sure which one but what i dont understand is i have been up from 4.30 this morning and i have been suicidal i just wanted to lay down and die but at around 6.00 tonight it was like a switch had been flicked in my head and i was very hungry and and was grinning and laughing at the tv im like this every day and i dont understand it all i have been cutting a lot as well when i feel good i am trying to find out as much as i can before i feel like that again im only getting a couple hours sleep at night and im nodding off constantly during the day i hallucinate on and off but i have done that for years it can get relly bad they direct me guide tell me its ok to do certain things and if i vocally tell anyone then i will suffer the consequences i also smell feel and taste things and am very concerned that there are people in my flat or have a secret entrance i have checked all the cupboards windows doors and they are all secure so how the hell do they get in?? i keep the curtains closed because people are watching me my neighbours are also spying on me and i dont trust anyone

 

[stupid1]

no app

well no app guess that was all in my head too, time to get drunk i think!!

 

[quality factor]

well no app guess that was all in my head too, time to get drunk i think!!

Have you got mixed up? did you not have an appointment after all?

 

[stupid1]

app

i got a phone call a woman saying that i had an app for thursday i told her i wasnt able to go out the house and she said she would get back to me but no one did so i think i might have been hallucinating which has happened before but not for quite a while so i dont know where i stand on this and im too embarrased to call and find out.

 

[stupid1]

I saw gp today and he wants me to speak to someone i cant remember if i agreed or but it dosent matter anyway they cant help me i just think family would be better off without me i cant carry on like this every day i am fighting the urge to just finish it that energy is fast running out my gp asked me what did i use to cut myself my gawd does it really matter? why are they soo interested in that i rally have the urge now im struggling hard to connect with peopple or anything nothing feels real i doubt everything unless there is proof a letter maybe i dont know i jst wasnt meant to be here i see and hear signs all around me telling me just that ( go on what you waiting for) my neighbours are sick of me i play music to block the voices out but it gets very loud sometimes they hate me i know they do they pretend niceness im not letting anyone in my flat again i see them looking and judgiing humans are not to be trusted gawd i wish they would leave me alone

 

[Twylight]

Be strong lass
dissociation ( lack of reality ) is treatable and so are voices

 

[stupid1]

really strugglin tonight im trying to at least appear normal to family they have anough goin on just now sorry dont even know why im posting its not like it s going to change anything

 

[Twylight]

From what I've learn't:
half the battle is talking about it..
Which will be difficult at first..