- Mar 17, 2015
hi I have never posted on a forum like this but I have seriously went into self destruct... I started a new job yesterday and already I have not been able to go back today I have no idea what the hell I am going to say to the agency and I already started a week later due to making up a terrible excuse of a family member passing away last Monday (was up all night last Monday sweating soo badly and heart palptations etc I have a appointment with cpn tomorrow which I have never had either got this through GP seemed to wake up when I said I had thoughts of suicide (which last week was literally just to get them to wake up) now though I am actually having thoughts of just taking an overdose and vodka I have previously messed up two other jobs in only a few months. I didn't even make the first day in first job in September and in December I got offered a good job in a car dealer ship and didn't make it back the second day due to anxiety left house and fiancée thought I went but I sat in car in nearby park trying to get myself together and I obviously didn't... now I have to go sign on today and its a review if I end up sanctioned I am soo in trouble even more as I have rent etc etc ..
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