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Chubby Eagle
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For some context, I’ve started to really buckle down and deal with my depression in the last four months. I see a therapist weekly and am taking medication – 200mg of Wellbutrin – and Seroquel for sleep. I have Major Depressive Disorder, which I’ve been dealing with on and off again since I was 18 (I’m 27 now).
But… I could use some advice.
I have a solid full-time job. I workout almost every day. And I’m not abusing substances or anything. I have a good life and a support system I’m working on building. I feel like I’m making progress, even if it is slow.
Regardless, on my worst days, I’ll wake up and feel as if all the color and vigor has been sucked out of the world. On the “best” (maybe I should say lightest) days of dealing with my depression, I feel very melancholy, but I can’t cry. I’m a sensitive person, and sometimes it feels as if these sad feelings will overwhelm me. They make me extremely uncomfortable and it can be really distressing when my day starts off in a low mood. It almost makes me feel like I’m choking inside…. if that even makes sense.
Sometimes stuff will trigger these feelings. For example, I was rewatching an old show I loved as a kid — Inuyasha. It’s pretty pulpy and goofy at this age, but I was having fun with it.
However, when the ending credits ran, a song played that made me extremely nostalgic and depressed, so much so that it ruined my mood for the rest of the day. I tried to go for a walk, but it didn’t really help that much. I’m also with my parents right now because of the whole COVID-19 thing, and I felt too embarrassed to tell my parents that an anime has brought up a lot of difficult feelings for me to handle.
The thing is – it was just a song – I feel as if I shouldn’t be so affected by media and art like this. Yes, art can create these feelings, but I guess I’m really struggling with how to process negative emotions like sadness, etc when they come up. I don’t want to give up stuff that I love and I do enjoy experiencing a wide variety of art, regardless of the tone. I guess I feel like something is wrong with me.
Here’s the song, by the way:
I guess what I’m asking is
If any of you have felt like this when dealing with depressive feelings that feel like a lot, what do you do to find relief or process them?
Have any works of art, whether be a song or show or a novel, made you feel a wave of depression or melancholy that’s too much to handle? If they have, how do you work through this?
Thank so much for reading or for any advice. Anything helps!
But… I could use some advice.
I have a solid full-time job. I workout almost every day. And I’m not abusing substances or anything. I have a good life and a support system I’m working on building. I feel like I’m making progress, even if it is slow.
Regardless, on my worst days, I’ll wake up and feel as if all the color and vigor has been sucked out of the world. On the “best” (maybe I should say lightest) days of dealing with my depression, I feel very melancholy, but I can’t cry. I’m a sensitive person, and sometimes it feels as if these sad feelings will overwhelm me. They make me extremely uncomfortable and it can be really distressing when my day starts off in a low mood. It almost makes me feel like I’m choking inside…. if that even makes sense.
Sometimes stuff will trigger these feelings. For example, I was rewatching an old show I loved as a kid — Inuyasha. It’s pretty pulpy and goofy at this age, but I was having fun with it.
However, when the ending credits ran, a song played that made me extremely nostalgic and depressed, so much so that it ruined my mood for the rest of the day. I tried to go for a walk, but it didn’t really help that much. I’m also with my parents right now because of the whole COVID-19 thing, and I felt too embarrassed to tell my parents that an anime has brought up a lot of difficult feelings for me to handle.
The thing is – it was just a song – I feel as if I shouldn’t be so affected by media and art like this. Yes, art can create these feelings, but I guess I’m really struggling with how to process negative emotions like sadness, etc when they come up. I don’t want to give up stuff that I love and I do enjoy experiencing a wide variety of art, regardless of the tone. I guess I feel like something is wrong with me.
Here’s the song, by the way:
I guess what I’m asking is
If any of you have felt like this when dealing with depressive feelings that feel like a lot, what do you do to find relief or process them?
Have any works of art, whether be a song or show or a novel, made you feel a wave of depression or melancholy that’s too much to handle? If they have, how do you work through this?
Thank so much for reading or for any advice. Anything helps!