- Jan 4, 2017
I'm an avid SI'er and had been clean for 7 months, until something triggered me bad today. I self harmed and now I want to do it more, or worse, I just see nothing ever ending, sick of living the cycle of depression, urges and triggers. I hate that people tiptoe around me so not to "trigger" me. I hate having to "act normal and happy" when I'm miserable inside. Instead of showing hurt I get angry at everything and everybody around me, I just lash out. Then I isolate and SI again, and it's an never ending cycle, I'm sick of it, I just want it all to END.