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Everyone has moments like that at least a couple times in their lives, but for those with mental illnesses, it’s almost daily. Sounds like a sign that you’re suppresing certain emotions or traumatic memories that need to be released. A lot of healing comes in processing and making sense of past memories. Don’t rush in too fast, but don’t avoid it entirely either.
 
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So I've had this thing happen to me since I was like 12 (I'm 23 now) and I know that it sounds strange and dumb but every once in awhile I'll be thinking about something normal like for example in my mind I'll be like "I wonder if my room would look pretty painted lavender" no real emotion to it or anything.. No anxiety or bad feelings.. Not even really happy ones. I'm JUST thinking to myself what it would look like and then suddenly my thoughts in my head go from being a normal tone to me screaming every word unable to make my thoughts go back to my normal tone in my head for several minutes.. I don't understand it. I'm not yelling aloud.. Its just me screaming "I wonder if my room would look good painted a plum purple or just a lavender paint ". Honest I don't know why it happens..
 
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I am experiencing the same. I know it's not an hallucination, because it's only a thought, but its so strong that it seems like I'm actually going crazy.
 
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So I've had this thing happen to me since I was like 12 (I'm 23 now) and I know that it sounds strange and dumb but every once in awhile I'll be thinking about something normal like for example in my mind I'll be like "I wonder if my room would look pretty painted lavender" no real emotion to it or anything.. No anxiety or bad feelings.. Not even really happy ones. I'm JUST thinking to myself what it would look like and then suddenly my thoughts in my head go from being a normal tone to me screaming every word unable to make my thoughts go back to my normal tone in my head for several minutes.. I don't understand it. I'm not yelling aloud.. Its just me screaming "I wonder if my room would look good painted a plum purple or just a lavender paint ". Honest I don't know why it happens..

I have this exact same thing! I was working the other day at my dads job and I was just sitting on the computer listening to some music and suddenly everything I thinking about started to scream in my head and I couldnt make it stop. For example: I was thinking of going to grab a coffee and it yelled in my head *GO GRAB A COFFEE!*. I have this experience only maybe once in a month and it doesnt last for long maybe just 10-20minutes when I cant think clearly. Its not like disturbing me or anything its just scary when it happens.
 
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Hi, I’m 18 and I’ve had a similar thing going on for at least a few months. I will hear my inner voice begin to scream, usually things like “you should kill yourself, you’re disgusting, etc “. It lasts for a few minutes where I can’t do anything but curl up in a ball and sometimes cry. It is very distressing and I can never distract myself, I feel very guilty that I am unable to change my thought patterns to healthy ways of thinking. It happens at least once a week.
 
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I dont know if this is the same thing but I will be going about my day and I'll get the same thing. But it's almost like people are screaming in my ears but no one is there......
 
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So, I thought I was crazy till I read this post and all of the replies. I have epilepsy, so I thought maybe this feeling (screaming, nostalgia, déjà vu, etc.) was an epileptic aura or something, but now I realize it's not. I wish I could understand why this happens, because it really makes me uncomfortable. Quick question for you guys: if you're reading something while one of these episodes happens, does it almost seem like you're reading all caps? That's what just happened to me a few minutes ago.
 
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I hear myself screaming every day. Some days are more quiet than others, but it's fairly consistent. Haven't quite found out how to calm it down yet. It feels like it's coming up from my chest to my throat to my mind and it can blank out every other thought I have. I'm stressed, depressed, been drinking a lot as of late. I'm still here though. Hopefully if any of you guys have it this bad, you're holding on too.
 
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Hi, I’m 18 and I’ve had a similar thing going on for at least a few months. I will hear my inner voice begin to scream, usually things like “you should kill yourself, you’re disgusting, etc “. It lasts for a few minutes where I can’t do anything but curl up in a ball and sometimes cry. It is very distressing and I can never distract myself, I feel very guilty that I am unable to change my thought patterns to healthy ways of thinking. It happens at least once a week.
Maybe intrusive thoughts?
 
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It's weird, I have it less often but I got it the other day and was just curious. I'll be doing something mundane like sorting the laundry or something, and it will come, it feels like I'm screaming, but all the physical actions have been removed and just the mental experience of screaming remains, I act completely normal but in my head I'm freaking out. It's not as though I actually hear the screaming or anything it's just as if my mind's gone into overdrive, it's hard to explain. And I get a weird kind of nostalgia that doesn't make any sense, like I'm listening to a song I haven't heard in years of something. It's happened to me every few months since I can remember. It's not particularly scary, it can be kind of enjoyable just because it's so weird. Thought it might be anxiety related, not sure. Let me know if this has happened to you.
When I was a teenager and now but less as a adult a man tied to a wheelchair in my head used to scream.He doesn't do it so much now as a adult as I have more control and insight.It may be a way of coping with stress with you as it was and is with me.
 
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I'm overjoyed to know other people experience exactly what I've experienced for so long. This screaming mind everyone is talking for me is quite unsettling, it usually happens when I'm doing something mundane as well, and it feels like my mind is speaking in all caps and too quickly for me to understand anything it's saying. It has just happened to me, for the 9th time in my life, hence why I found this forum. I'm 17 about to turn 18 and I remember as kid experiencing this 2 times, and in both experiences I felt disconnect with the world around me and it seemed like the room I was in was much bigger than it actually was. At the time, I looked into it and it seem like it was either "Alice in wonderland syndrome" or just an episode of derealization. But then it didn't happen for a while until around a year ago I had a really bad trip on weed and I started having panic attacks and overall anxiety, with depression following suit. Since then it's happened more often, sometimes once a week and sometimes I go 2 or 3 months without having one of these episodes. Next time I have a therapy session with my psycologist I'll talk to her about this, but what everyone is saying about the suppression of certain feelings bringing these episodes about rings a bell, since I haven't overcome the trauma of having that bad trip, and probably having some childhood trauma I haven't become consciously aware of could explain why this happens (and also explain why they've been happening more often since I've had my bad trip).
Also, thanks for all of you guys' stories, I don't feel so alone in this anymore and it was nice reading everyone's different experiences. I just created this account to leave my own story about this in hopes other people don't feel so alone as well.
 
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I know this was posted 10 years ago (!!!) but I was wondering if anyone in this thread has found any answers? I experience the same exact thing the original poster described—literally word for word—but have no idea what it is.
 
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I’m truly fascinated by this. I’ve experienced something very similar to this for years and years. Mine just feels like screaming in my head. I don’t actually hear anything. And I’m always fully aware that it’s not real. I tend to be a very busy person and am usual listening to something (music, a podcast, a book), if I’m not conversing with someone. And my screaming happens when I slow down and sit in silence. This evening it happened after a very rushed afternoon and evening. I was finally alone, cooking a simple dinner, and allowing myself to just be in silence while I was doing so. And then the screaming started. When I started searching on Google to see if anyone had written anything about this phenomenon before, that is once my mind was engaged in something more thoughtful again, the screaming immediately stopped.

I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 1 with psychotic features, and while I experience psychosis on occasion, it’s almost exclusively in the form of delusions, not hallucinations. This is the closest thing I experience to a hallucination, and the fact that I know it’s not real the whole time makes me think it’s not truly a hallucination.

For some reason it’s reminiscent of the dissociation that I experience on a fairly consistent basis (a result of prolonged trauma as a kiddo). It feels like it’s someone else screaming, in the same way that I sometimes feel like my emotions and thoughts are not my own. Or that my body is not my own.

I’m going to dig deeper on this because why does this happen to all of us? I studied neuroscience and have been endlessly fascinated by the brain since childhood. I wonder if anyone has studied this in depth. I will report back if I find anything of note.
 
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I've screamed in my head for years. Reason being? I've had chronic pain for years and I'm not allowed to scream in real life because it would annoy my parents.
So for hours, every day, I'll just be screaming in my head instead. I don't hear anything, I just scream with my mouth open in my mind and it helps me deal with pain. It's been helpful now because I've had a migraine for over three weeks and I can't go to the ER for it yet even though it really hurts.
Gotten to the point where if I'm not thinking of anything, I will get a bunch of intrusive thoughts, and then I'll just revert to mentally screaming. So one could say this is my default mental state.
 
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Hi, this has happened twice to me. The second time I really thought someone was next to me. Scary stuff...
 
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