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LockedUp86
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Hello,
I'm here because I desperately need some help from someone who has been where I am. I really don't want to keep living like this, so I beg you to offer me some real advice. Something that will work, and change my life for the better. I need this, and I hope I'm not asking for too much.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago. The diagnosis alone has ruined my life. I feel stigmatized, and I can't help it. I'll never feel normal again. My life (or the life I once had) is over. The old me has died. I don't even remember the old me. I wish I did.
I have no friends. Communication (of any kind) has become difficult. Mostly, I just spend my days at home watching TV. I try to read (or start studying) sometimes (I was once a good reader), but for some reason it has also become difficult to read. I think the problem is with my ability to concentrate. I can't seem to concentrate on anything anymore. I am constantly restless and in panic mode. The same thoughts go through my mind in cycles. I feel trapped and unable to enjoy life. This is hell, and it never seems to go away.
I pray that I'm experiencing the side-effects of the medication that I'm on.
Hope is all I have left. I hope for better days. I spend part of my day thinking about an alternate self in a alternate world. This brings some happiness.
I started taking medication 4-5 months ago. Right now I am taking 5mgs of Risperidone. This medication really sucks. I can't explain it. My mind on this medication feels like it's locked up in heavy chains. It just makes me feel bad all the time.
Anyways, ...I don't know what to expect from this. This is my last resort. If this doesn't work, then I have no other options available to me. I don't know what to do.
I do see a psychiatrist once a month and I try to explain myself to him, but that doesn't seem to help. I leave his office wondering if I'll ever be free of this.
There doesn't seem to be any help out there. How do I help myself?
Please help.
I'm here because I desperately need some help from someone who has been where I am. I really don't want to keep living like this, so I beg you to offer me some real advice. Something that will work, and change my life for the better. I need this, and I hope I'm not asking for too much.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago. The diagnosis alone has ruined my life. I feel stigmatized, and I can't help it. I'll never feel normal again. My life (or the life I once had) is over. The old me has died. I don't even remember the old me. I wish I did.
I have no friends. Communication (of any kind) has become difficult. Mostly, I just spend my days at home watching TV. I try to read (or start studying) sometimes (I was once a good reader), but for some reason it has also become difficult to read. I think the problem is with my ability to concentrate. I can't seem to concentrate on anything anymore. I am constantly restless and in panic mode. The same thoughts go through my mind in cycles. I feel trapped and unable to enjoy life. This is hell, and it never seems to go away.
I pray that I'm experiencing the side-effects of the medication that I'm on.
Hope is all I have left. I hope for better days. I spend part of my day thinking about an alternate self in a alternate world. This brings some happiness.
I started taking medication 4-5 months ago. Right now I am taking 5mgs of Risperidone. This medication really sucks. I can't explain it. My mind on this medication feels like it's locked up in heavy chains. It just makes me feel bad all the time.
Anyways, ...I don't know what to expect from this. This is my last resort. If this doesn't work, then I have no other options available to me. I don't know what to do.
I do see a psychiatrist once a month and I try to explain myself to him, but that doesn't seem to help. I leave his office wondering if I'll ever be free of this.
There doesn't seem to be any help out there. How do I help myself?
Please help.