- May 15, 2020
- South Africa
About a year ago I took an overdose of a psychedelic, this is ontop of having schizophrenia. I experienced things unimaginable, my watched my entire life crumble. Saw my best friend murder me over and over, and eventually I ended up killing myself, well I thought I did, ever since then my schizophrenia has been worse, I get random tremors and PTSD from the event, but overall ever since I thought I killed myself I really feel dead, I feel so empty inside, it's almost worst than when I feel depressed because I feel nothing, just blank like a machine watching a chaotic world through a window. I feel like I'm constantly being torn apart, I feel like nobody really understands me and nobody really cares to, this universe can be so beautiful but it can also be one's worst nightmare.