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Hi there how can we help. What's been happening.
If you feel at risk please ring the crisis team. If you can't guarantee your own safety ring the emergency number or if able get someone to take you too a&e at your local hospital.
 
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thank you guys..

I have crashed since friday... i'm ot sure if i am a real threat tomyself but i am struggling again......

i have no cash :( but bills are paid and food in.

I lost a friend who is very poorly, she's not died but gone away...

still getting mixed messages from my ex, who I love so much and miss so much, she has her new life with her new partner why i'm sat alone wantig to die or at leats get an end to feelig so bad.

i know i am being selfish...


i am sorry

i am posting too much.
 
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thank you guys..

I have crashed since friday... i'm ot sure if i am a real threat tomyself but i am struggling again......

i have no cash :( but bills are paid and food in.

I lost a friend who is very poorly, she's not died but gone away...

still getting mixed messages from my ex, who I love so much and miss so much, she has her new life with her new partner why i'm sat alone wantig to die or at leats get an end to feelig so bad.

i know i am being selfish...


i am sorry

i am posting too much.
your not posting too much we are here to listen :hug:
 
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No you are not being selfish, and never ever think you are posting too much, you aren't and I dont believe there's such a thing as posting too much.
Great you are here asking for help x
Yeh I still love my ex, he has moved on,

You will get there, its hard. Try and do something nice for just you. Have you a hobby. I get absorbed in books. My dog helps me.
 
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thanks

I'd love a dog, but its not suitable wher ei'm living right now..
 
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I'll give my dog an extra hug from you
Could you have a cat? I do think for me animals at times bring me lots of comfort.
 
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a cat might be an option... right now i'm just trying to stay alive.. i can't really make plans as my mind isn't strong enough..
 
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i feel hell is calling me.. had to fight an "erg" this morning to do something stupid.
 
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post support group low.. very S

:(

just self medicated with apin killers...
 
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sorry been over using pain killer to numb my brain off...
 
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hello folks.....

I'm sat i hell..... i managed to get soem sleep through meds but i just feel so shit/low....

I' forced myself out but glad to be back now..

i'm not sure which way to tuen any more..


anyone got an answer?

I want to be dead but not die... i don't want to leave my daughter through suicide..


this isn't life.
 
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sweetie you have been feeling like this with no respite for so long now something really does have to give
could your counsellor see you more or what about a change in meds?
when are you seeing somebody about your debts? here for you xxx
 
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i have CAP here in July... they are going to help my bankruptcy. take ten eyars to get here but i know i don't have an answer now.

I'm sick of this mood.. I came here 7 years ago. a long time. desperate for an answer.

on meds since then.

see my therapist tomorrow.

i wanted to go away" for a couple of days but can't afford it.. i found a retreat with no wifi/tv just a quite space, I'm not sure that would solve anything.

maybe some of us are just bore depressed?
 
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just taken my night meds.... sleep will be with be soon all being well
 
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