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Scared to put bin out on bin day

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Dooley

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I never go out unless i go out in the car. I live in the corner in a semi detached house, 6ft fence all around including the half of the drive. The drive has a space for a car then you open the 6ft gate to get to the other half of the drive where i have my 2 cars. I came the cars behind the gate because of the area and yobbos. Today was bin day. I hate it. It means i have to walk out to put the bin out knowing that poeple are watching me. Nobody likes or talks to me even the they know nothing about me or have even bothered trying to get to know me. So because of that, and the fact that they talk about me because i have heard them, makes me feel nervous to go out. I put the bit out late at night about 1am or 2am and then bring it in at 9am after they have been and that is when i hate it. I walk down the drive switching my mind off pretending that nobody is there looking at me staring talking about me because their lives are so boring that they have nothing better to do, and i bring the bin up the drive through the gate. Phew. Such a big thing. A few seconds. This is why my anxiety is the way it is, because of these arseholes making me think that everyone is looking at me and talking about me. I am saving up so that i can move do a decent area, rural area, and i am saving enough for these so called deposits and bonds . Pah!
 
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Georgina

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I hope things improve you deserve to be happy where you live if you get a letter of a mental health professional you may get a council or a move to a better area where you can relax the way you deserve to.
 
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Dooley

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I live in a rented house from a private landlord which was obviously an ex council house and i am hoping to move to a private house in a rural area one day once i have saved up enough. Or, a housing association in a rural area. I have seen some but need money for the removal company. Hopefully next year.
 
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EstherRose94

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Every time you manage to get the bin out there or back up to your house you’re conquering a fear. It’s actually really good that you continue to do it even though you dislike it.
 
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Dooley

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Bag of nerves each time. Needs doing though . Why are people so nasty.
 
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Georgina

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I live in a rented house from a private landlord which was obviously an ex council house and i am hoping to move to a private house in a rural area one day once i have saved up enough. Or, a housing association in a rural area. I have seen some but need money for the removal company. Hopefully next year.
I moved from a council house to a new build housing association there were kids in and out constantly in the council house I'm a bit better place now just keep pushing till you get there Good Luck to you x
 
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Dooley

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I moved from a council house to a new build housing association there were kids in and out constantly in the council house I'm a bit better place now just keep pushing till you get there Good Luck to you x
Thanks. Hoping to find a better place soon!
 
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midnightphoenix

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I hope you get a better place soon Dooley, you deserve a better place, where i live everyone just keeps themselfs to themselfs :hug:
 
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Dooley

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In the last 7 years and 10 houses we have stayed, the happiest place i stayed was the scottish borders. Rural area. Need a car though because nearest shops were over 20 miles away and asda 28 miles away. But yeah, very quiet. Going back there next. Definetely.
 
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