• Hi. It’s great to see you. Welcome!

    Our forum members are people, maybe like yourself, who experience mental health difficulties or who have had them at some point in their life. Amongst our membership there is a wealth of expertise that has been developed through having to deal with mental health issues.

    We are an actively moderated forum with a team of experienced moderators. We also have a specialist safety team that works extra hard to keep the forum safe for visitors and members.

    Register now to access many more features and forums!

Scared to buy my first gun..? OCD/rumination/intrusive thoughts

T

tincan45

Member
Joined
Jun 28, 2018
Messages
9
this might be a long post, so please bear with me. First and foremost, I am pro-gun as the title may suggest, but I have this continuous fear that I’ll be careless with my purchased (AK/AR... to be determined) gun, and do what many other mentally unstable people do. I do not condone mass murdering, and I have this fear of being too careful around people to not accidentally harm them... but sometimes I think in my head: “what if... I actually use it?” I’ll read news articles, or these really contagious YouTube videos that strive only to empower the reader as a capable “killing machine” by means of labeling the shooters hobbies, or lifestyle. I read an article about how (I know saying this bastards name is bad, but I must for this example) Adam Lanza stayed at home all the time, hating the sun, secluding himself from people, Researched columbine a lot, played lots of video games, (we have almost the same amount) fantasized, and pretty much questioned the world. When I read that... I felt as if that article was being written about me, and I felt this sense of regret, or like disgust that instantaneously plagued my body full of it. I closed my Sportsman rifle shopping tab, I closed out the article, turned off my computer and felt like I’m a worthless slave to America’s history. And by that I mean I cannot be me without the fear of being he, even though I know I’m not goinkg to be he, but the “what if’s,” and the “how does someone get that fucked up,” ruminating perpetuates all of these doubts. I want to buy a rifle for defense, I am almost 21, I am somewhat of a misanthrope that stays inside a lot, but I really want to take advantage of my second-amendment rights before another one of these stupid shootings happens, and outlaws these things. What do you think I should do? Should I get the gun even though I play scenarios in my head, and out of frustration sometimes, I make jokes, or maybe pissed off empty-threats that pertain to these shootings... or should I just skip out on it. Also, do you have these issues nowadays if you’re a gun owner? And if so, how do you cope with it? I feel like there’s not enough threads on the internet about this, and I’m starting to feel abnormal even though it’s my brain playing tricks on me. Sorry if this was lengthy, and I hope those three questions are relatable enough for you to answer them.
 
InfiniteRectangles

InfiniteRectangles

Well-known member
Joined
Sep 23, 2018
Messages
508
Location
Georgia, USA
I'm not pro-gun, but I'm not anti-gun either. I don't like guns but I don't mind responsible adults having their own guns. Honestly, if I were in your situation I would not feel comfortable owning a gun. I would wait until you're a little more sure in your decision and you can make a responsible, well thought out decision on whether or not you should own a gun. I would wait until these scenarios die down a little, and if they don't, maybe talk to a therapist about these thoughts and learn ways to cope with them before buying a gun. It's a big decision to make, in my opinion, and I wouldn't rush into it. But that's just what I think. I've never owned, or even shot a gun before so I can't really help you in that area.
 
C

Candy19

Guest
if you don't trust yourself with a gun or think you would use it to harm yourself or others for irrational reasons then don't get one, not sure of the laws of getting one as I'm English, but in general they shouldn't give guns to mentally ill people
 
E

Efstathia

New member
Joined
Oct 2, 2018
Messages
2
You are too young and seem to have a lot of issues. You do not need a gun. You need to find fun or/and interesting things to do.
 
C

cloudswimmer

Member
Joined
Aug 28, 2016
Messages
5
You are too young and seem to have a lot of issues. You do not need a gun. You need to find fun or/and interesting things to do.
Actually the shooting sports are both fun and interesting .. they ARE in the Olympics you know :D
 
Top