Scared of the future

BPD Babe

BPD Babe

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I suffer with depression, anxiety, BPD and SPD (Schizoid Personality Disorder). I have really been struggling lately and a couple of weeks ago I ended up in hospital after doing something silly. I muddle along as best I can from day-to-day, although some days I can barely function. I have tried to explain all of this to my cpn as I honestly don't think she realises just how much I struggle some days. Anyway when I saw her last week after my stay in hospital, I felt that she was putting a lot of pressure on me to get out more and be amongst people and socialise and just to 'make more of an effort'. I said to her that I am struggling just to keep myself safe most days, and that I don't feel well enough to do the things she is asking. I guess she is trying to do what she feels is best for me, but I am just feeling under so much pressure, and that I am letting everyone down :eek:(
 
burt tomato

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I like reading your post - it was inspirational to me actually.
 
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Andy51

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Its amazing how many people I am relating to on this forum. Its terrible how many people and young too are suffering and even cpn's don't fully get it. I'm sick of talking to my psycho she don't help. If I look OK then I must be OK according to everyone. It ain't like that though. You are not letting anyone down either. Keep safe.
 
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Hi BPD Babe, I know what it is like to have to stay in your comfort zone. Your post had the title Scared of the future. But the body of your text was about being pressured to get out more and how your doctor doesn't seem to understand how difficult this is for you. My doctor also pressures me to get out more and doesn't understand that I have a pinched nerve and I can't sit down on most chairs when I go places. The pain isn't worth it to me. But I would love to hear more about the title you gave your post. The title you gave your post is what attracted me to you in the first place.
 
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Hi BPD Babe I know the feeling. I've had at least 5 cpns over the years (my illness caused me to move around a lot because in my childhood we were always moving) they all say the same thing establish a routine, go for walks, join groups etc. the thing is when you feel so low it's hard enough to get out of bed and even get dressed never mind go anywhere. On the flip side if I'm feeling 'euphoric' or have an elevated mood I go out too much, do too much, spend to much, sometimes even putting myself in risky situations.

So what is the answer, all of the mental health workers I've seen seem to go by the book, saying the same things as if it's been drilled into them this is what has to done. And they use the same spiel on friends of mine who have completely different problems.
I'm currently waiting on DBT it sounds different and I am hopeful from my research that it will at least help me fear the future less and give me the tools to have some control over BDP.

I wish you all the best, I've suffered for 7yrs with this and only getting some real therapy set in place. Ask about getting DBT at least get on the waiting list and I hope for the best for you.

:hug: take care of yourself if you have any questions you can pm me or just ask here we are all in the same boat on here.
 

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