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Hi there,

I have developed a form of OCD which gives me repetitive thoughts. It's mostly names and songs I play back and fourth in my head. I was on medication 5 months ago and took 1 pill and it gave me serious side effects. Which has frightened me to use another pill again.

Is anyone who has these symptoms on medication for their OCD?

I am currently going through another dose of CBT with another therapist under the NHS. I had repetitive thoughts before I went for my new session and the new session with the new therapist made me feel worse, I wish I never went for it. I had intrusive thoughts that lasted for ages yesterday.

Today I am trying to keep it all together but finding it a struggle every day.

Can you all please tell me how you keep it together every day? do you have good and bad days?

Thanks x
 
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Is it an Ssri? They take a while to get used to. The first week or so is like you might as well be at Woodstock but after that it levels out and isn’t bad.
 
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Is it an Ssri? They take a while to get used to. The first week or so is like you might as well be at Woodstock but after that it levels out and isn’t bad.
Yes it was a SSRI pill only 10mcg
 
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Yeah they take a week or so to get used to. Sometimes you can ask for like an as needed anxiety med to use with it during the first week
 
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Hi MissPink. Not sure how you are feeling right now. I think you have to learn how to cope with your intrusive thoughts. Medication only dulls the symptoms. When those thoughts enter into your mind you need to forcefully take control and know it is all safe. Most of the things we worry about are 88 % untrue. The other 12 % has to do with taking care of yourself and eating regularly. Try to do some exercise. I just sit in my chair and stretch out my body and it works.

I also come on the forum to talk about what is bothering me. Wishing you the best Jules
 
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Hi MissPink. Not sure how you are feeling right now. I think you have to learn how to cope with your intrusive thoughts. Medication only dulls the symptoms. When those thoughts enter into your mind you need to forcefully take control and know it is all safe. Most of the things we worry about are 88 % untrue. The other 12 % has to do with taking care of yourself and eating regularly. Try to do some exercise. I just sit in my chair and stretch out my body and it works.

I also come on the forum to talk about what is bothering me. Wishing you the best Jules
Okay. Thank you for the good advice. I am keen on trying another pill due to having no control with my thought pattern.
 
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It takes a month for an ssri to restructure your cytoskeleton. Until then it won't have any positive effect. If you can't get a song out of your head try listening to a stereo system that has a scan feature and let it run for half an hour. A new station will come up every 10 seconds or so and eventually it will break your concentration. It can even put you to sleep once you get used to it. You can try to cancel out repetitive thoughts by reading a book backwards. Not reading the sentences backwards but starting with the last chapter and working your way to the beginning. If none of that works there are other ways to scramble your thoughts like laying on your bed the opposite way and putting your socks on your hands. Enter a room and then knock on the door, walk backwards down a stairs, try on wet clothes before you put them in the dryer, etc...
 
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It takes a month for an ssri to restructure your cytoskeleton. Until then it won't have any positive effect. If you can't get a song out of your head try listening to a stereo system that has a scan feature and let it run for half an hour. A new station will come up every 10 seconds or so and eventually it will break your concentration. It can even put you to sleep once you get used to it. You can try to cancel out repetitive thoughts by reading a book backwards. Not reading the sentences backwards but starting with the last chapter and working your way to the beginning. If none of that works there are other ways to scramble your thoughts like laying on your bed the opposite way and putting your socks on your hands. Enter a room and then knock on the door, walk backwards down a stairs, try on wet clothes before you put them in the dryer, etc...
Hi,

thanks for your reply. I have never heard of doing things like walking backwards down stairs and trying on wet clothes?! is that some sort of distraction therapy?

I don't mind the songs playing because it's better than saying out names in my head. That is what I am struggling with the most! the repetitive names in my mind, sometimes I will have a name stuck in my head for over 2 days and until I am tired of it then it will go away and I will think of another name and then it goes around in a spiral. I have got used to it for so long that it's my "normal" way of thinking now. I know it's not normal ofc but I am finding it hard to find a good therapist that can help me change.

Should I be going for ERP therapy? as well as CBT? I find the cbt is really slow. Last therapist went through counselling with me and I didn't like it as it was supposed to be cbt and I had to talk about my ex and my issues with him when I was younger and I found that really hard to talk about.
 
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Hi,

thanks for your reply. I have never heard of doing things like walking backwards down stairs and trying on wet clothes?! is that some sort of distraction therapy?

I don't mind the songs playing because it's better than saying out names in my head. That is what I am struggling with the most! the repetitive names in my mind, sometimes I will have a name stuck in my head for over 2 days and until I am tired of it then it will go away and I will think of another name and then it goes around in a spiral. I have got used to it for so long that it's my "normal" way of thinking now. I know it's not normal ofc but I am finding it hard to find a good therapist that can help me change.

Should I be going for ERP therapy? as well as CBT? I find the cbt is really slow. Last therapist went through counselling with me and I didn't like it as it was supposed to be cbt and I had to talk about my ex and my issues with him when I was younger and I found that really hard to talk about.
The repetitive name thing can last years. You can try to order your brain to stop but it does take considerable willpower. The other option would be to have something in the external world that requires all your attention like a new friend or a love interest, or maybe even a dog. Therapy is fine for self-discovery but it isn't very satisfying. I think finding a supportive friend that doesn't mind listening to all your problems is more productive than therapy.
 
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The repetitive name thing can last years. You can try to order your brain to stop but it does take considerable willpower. The other option would be to have something in the external world that requires all your attention like a new friend or a love interest, or maybe even a dog. Therapy is fine for self-discovery but it isn't very satisfying. I think finding a supportive friend that doesn't mind listening to all your problems is more productive than therapy.
Thank you for replying.

I have been on a couple of dates with someone new! however I realized him and I are different and not really suited, but I am going to still see him for 'something' to do as friends.

I have a good friend that is a good listener, she has been through some tough mental problems, so she understands where I am coming from. However she has not recovered fully from her problems as the drugs she takes just makes her numb, she's still anxious as anything and has had lots of therapy, she's happy taking the drugs. I wouldn't want to be like that.
 
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It takes a month for an ssri to restructure your cytoskeleton. Until then it won't have any positive effect. If you can't get a song out of your head try listening to a stereo system that has a scan feature and let it run for half an hour. A new station will come up every 10 seconds or so and eventually it will break your concentration. It can even put you to sleep once you get used to it. You can try to cancel out repetitive thoughts by reading a book backwards. Not reading the sentences backwards but starting with the last chapter and working your way to the beginning. If none of that works there are other ways to scramble your thoughts like laying on your bed the opposite way and putting your socks on your hands. Enter a room and then knock on the door, walk backwards down a stairs, try on wet clothes before you put them in the dryer, etc...
I have actually been listening to relaxing calming music and that has helped to keep my mind silent. If I sit silently and 'get on' with stuff I can just let go of thoughts and power through stuff. But that is not all the time, it does take time for me to be totally silent in my mind, it's effort and patience.
 
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