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PansNana

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I may well ramble on. Thank you for sticking with this intro.

So I'm diagnosed with borderline and schizoaffective. Had my first (official) psychosis back in 2012. It's been a long journey and recovery isn't linear. Lately I've been struggling with things more. Part of that is lockdown - reminding me of being in psych care - and part of it is pure self-destruction. The kind where you can see you're headed down a dark path but can't seem to do anything about it. I also have "Characters" and dissociate. I have a lot of trauma in my past.

For the last year or so I've been in music therapy. It's made a massive difference, but lockdown has put it on hold and I'm struggling. It's a great way of communicating and I'm lost without it. I am really, really struggling.

I feel very lonely. I have people, but it's hard to explain things to them. I don't want to bother or worry my husband with this - he's still healing from past troubles.
 
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I hope you can speak candidly here without fear. :)
 
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I may well ramble on. Thank you for sticking with this intro.

So I'm diagnosed with borderline and schizoaffective. Had my first (official) psychosis back in 2012. It's been a long journey and recovery isn't linear. Lately I've been struggling with things more. Part of that is lockdown - reminding me of being in psych care - and part of it is pure self-destruction. The kind where you can see you're headed down a dark path but can't seem to do anything about it. I also have "Characters" and dissociate. I have a lot of trauma in my past.

For the last year or so I've been in music therapy. It's made a massive difference, but lockdown has put it on hold and I'm struggling. It's a great way of communicating and I'm lost without it. I am really, really struggling.

I feel very lonely. I have people, but it's hard to explain things to them. I don't want to bother or worry my husband with this - he's still healing from past troubles.
So sorry to hear that you are struggling, Pans...we are glad to have you here. xo, j
 

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