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Lizz5819

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Hey guys!

Not super sure what to say in my introductory post but I’m out here giving it a red hot go! I’m a 27 year old woman living in Sydney Australia and I was diagnosed as bipolar type schizoaffective around one year ago. Went through all the usual misdiagnoses from age 18 until then — depression, anxiety, BPD, bipolar 2, bipolar 1 and finally my team realised that it was a similar, albeit slightly different, kettle of fish we were dealing with.

My main issues surrounding this particular breed of SZA centre around severe mania and delusions/paranoia. Funnily the visual hallucinations don’t bother me (when I realise they ARE actually hallucinations, haha), and I haven’t experienced depression in roughly 2 years. If someone had told me that I wouldn’t be dealing with the sads anymore I would have been SO relieved...little did I know how much more problematic and destructive mania can be 😩😂

Anyway idrk what else to say. I’ve been a sex worker for the past 7 years as that’s the job that gives me the most financial security while also allowing me to take as much time off as I need when I’m in a rough patch. I also write a blog detailing my life as a SWer with chronic illness and self publish zines with collections of short stories. Now I’m stabler I’m looking for other creative ways to keep my brain occupied in a healthy way.

I’ve been on Lamotrigine for 2 years and Latuda for 9 months and I’ve found those to be the best combination for me with the least side effects. I also take lyrica or Valium PRN for anxiety and zyprexa on top of my usual meds during acute episodes. Once Latuda kicked in, I realised that what my manic brain construed as “boring”, was really just stability haha. I have a fantastic treating team and a great support network with my friends and family, but it’s nice to be in a place where I can chat to other people who experience the same/similar things to me.

So that’s it from me! Hope everyone is doing well and maybe I’ll see some of you around the relevant forums 🤗
 
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Welcome Lizz5819, I'm from Brisbane myself so still in your neck of the woods. I am a nearly 40 year old schizoaffective bipolar type woman who is supposed to take Latuda (but keep forgetting because of the having it with a meal thing). I also take Fluanxol depot injection, Largactil and for some reason Pristiq (I think it is because of I'm actually addicted to it due to being placed on higher and higher dosages over the years). Pristiq actually has the power to send me very manic sometimes. My moods are stable for now, but when I am on the rollercoaster of mood shift anything is likely to occur in my disaster-like brain. Like you my manic brain has construed stability as boring, I am still learning (even at my age) that boring is a good thing.

Like you I went through all sorts of misdiagnoses before hitting the right one. In all it took 5 years to find the right one and the right treatment for me. I've formerly been diagnosed as depression, bipolar, BPD, schizophrenia. Now I know this is the correct one.

A girl I befriended in hospital used to be a sex worker in a registered brothel. She found the work suited her needs as living with a chronic illness (a bit like you I guess).

Anyhoo, welcome and hope to see you around! :)
 
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sharkfin034

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Hey Lizz from Sydney, my name is Andy and living in Scotland but consider myself an international citizen. I am 28 and recently joined this website myself so am no expert in anything. I am fairly recently in treatment for bipolar and anxiety disorder after a crisis in January. I am still learning everything about the condition so cant offer much guidance. I just wanted to say that I completely understand that feeling of stability being misconstrued as boredom! More than you can ever know haha. Often "regular" life just isn't enough for me.


You sound like you have a very similar brain to me. It is a good feeling to read somebody write so eloquently about some issues that effect me. Thanks for that :) You sound like a really interesting person which is why I am posting. I am a writer too. Struggling lately but I am writing a book. Mostly I write political commentary. I would love to check out your blog. Maybe we can collaborate on a project in the future, help satisfy that creativity we both seem to have as a result of all this. It is a blessing and a curse because I know I am better writer because of the way my brain works.


Hit me up if you wanna chat ever, anytime, I'm here for similar reasons I think. Not quite sure what to expect, but I guess it can be whatever we make it. I wrote an intro too which describes myself more, if your bored check it out.


And if that still hasn't convinced you, I draw your attention to the fact that my sister lives in Australia...…..so...….there is that...hah...fact!
 
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Lizz5819

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Hi! Thank you for this lovely response. I watched some Scottish stand up the other day and absolutely go OFF for your accents, haha.

Re: the creativity — I couldn’t agree more. I definitely don’t think I’d be as intelligent/intuitive/funny as I am if I hadn’t had to deal with aaaall my mental health stuff. Character building! Haha.

Btw i’m more than happy to PM you a link to my blog if you’d like? It’s always nice to have readers :)
 
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