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Redsenma
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Trigger warning; suicide, depression mention, vomit.
Hi everyone, I’m redsenma, and you can call me red, senma, or whatever you want. I’m an unemployed, young adult, who lives in their grandparents home. My life is very messy, but I have struggled with mental health since I was very, very young. I have also had a myriad of traumatic things happened that have shaped who I am today.
I suffer from chronic depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and CTPSD. I also have anger issues and have struggled with mild self harm in the past. When I was 17, I attempted suicide. It was my only attempt. Obviously I survived. I did not take a lethal dose. Whether that is because I didn’t swallow enough pills, or because my family induced vomiting for over an hour; I cannot say. However, I am glad I did not succeed.
As I am still quite young and at that age where people often still live at home and are at a crossroads in their life. I have come to this forum for help, and perhaps to offer support when I have recovered somewhat.
Mainly what I came here for, was a judgment free zone where I can ask questions and advice for various things. Most of them are fairly mundane, but I don’t have many life skills. I was sheltered while growing up, and my grandmother tells me she did this because she felt pity for my situation. I did not learn how to cook, clean and such. And those are all things I had to learn. I also come from a very abusive family, and have a troubled home life. I struggle with self care, and will neglect food, hygiene, and will not move from bed, on the worse days.
That being said, I have met some amazing people I can call friends, and even a wonderful girlfriend. But.. I am still unable to overcome some hurdles. And that has left me with a deep amount of shame, and as my home situation worsens, I feel even more lost and depressed. I’m sinking back into that state.
I want to cut this introduction short though, and I’ll post my questions when I get the courage to do so. Thank you for reading, and I look forward to meeting and interacting with you all.
Hi everyone, I’m redsenma, and you can call me red, senma, or whatever you want. I’m an unemployed, young adult, who lives in their grandparents home. My life is very messy, but I have struggled with mental health since I was very, very young. I have also had a myriad of traumatic things happened that have shaped who I am today.
I suffer from chronic depression, generalized anxiety disorder, and CTPSD. I also have anger issues and have struggled with mild self harm in the past. When I was 17, I attempted suicide. It was my only attempt. Obviously I survived. I did not take a lethal dose. Whether that is because I didn’t swallow enough pills, or because my family induced vomiting for over an hour; I cannot say. However, I am glad I did not succeed.
As I am still quite young and at that age where people often still live at home and are at a crossroads in their life. I have come to this forum for help, and perhaps to offer support when I have recovered somewhat.
Mainly what I came here for, was a judgment free zone where I can ask questions and advice for various things. Most of them are fairly mundane, but I don’t have many life skills. I was sheltered while growing up, and my grandmother tells me she did this because she felt pity for my situation. I did not learn how to cook, clean and such. And those are all things I had to learn. I also come from a very abusive family, and have a troubled home life. I struggle with self care, and will neglect food, hygiene, and will not move from bed, on the worse days.
That being said, I have met some amazing people I can call friends, and even a wonderful girlfriend. But.. I am still unable to overcome some hurdles. And that has left me with a deep amount of shame, and as my home situation worsens, I feel even more lost and depressed. I’m sinking back into that state.
I want to cut this introduction short though, and I’ll post my questions when I get the courage to do so. Thank you for reading, and I look forward to meeting and interacting with you all.
