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bluebell24
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- Aug 7, 2009
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Feeling really down again ... I'm frustrated with not feeling like me and wondering how long it will take to get better. I don't even know if I'll ever feel like the 'old' me again and I liked me when I was happy.
Having to continually assess and reassess everything I think and feel to make sure my actions and reactions are measured and 'normal', that I'm not going too far one way or the other is wearing me out.
And I am so, so lonely. I miss being an open, warm and outgoing person but am too self-conscious and worried about making anyone feel overwhelmed or responsible for my well-being if I share anything too deep with them.
I miss the friendships I had. I don't know what to do. I wish I could make amends for my mistakes, or even just say sorry.
I hate this illness and as much as I have tried in recent months to put my life back together I feel so cut off from the world and people I have really loved.
Having to continually assess and reassess everything I think and feel to make sure my actions and reactions are measured and 'normal', that I'm not going too far one way or the other is wearing me out.
And I am so, so lonely. I miss being an open, warm and outgoing person but am too self-conscious and worried about making anyone feel overwhelmed or responsible for my well-being if I share anything too deep with them.
I miss the friendships I had. I don't know what to do. I wish I could make amends for my mistakes, or even just say sorry.
I hate this illness and as much as I have tried in recent months to put my life back together I feel so cut off from the world and people I have really loved.
