Sad & lonely

[bluebell24]

Feeling really down again ... I'm frustrated with not feeling like me and wondering how long it will take to get better. I don't even know if I'll ever feel like the 'old' me again and I liked me when I was happy.

Having to continually assess and reassess everything I think and feel to make sure my actions and reactions are measured and 'normal', that I'm not going too far one way or the other is wearing me out.

And I am so, so lonely. I miss being an open, warm and outgoing person but am too self-conscious and worried about making anyone feel overwhelmed or responsible for my well-being if I share anything too deep with them.

I miss the friendships I had. I don't know what to do. I wish I could make amends for my mistakes, or even just say sorry.

I hate this illness and as much as I have tried in recent months to put my life back together I feel so cut off from the world and people I have really loved.

 

[Apotheosis]

I'll join you; I feel sad & lonely too.

I feel like crying; I would if I could.

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[sallyG]

Im sorry to hear your feeling sad and lonely,...i am too today...

 

[skyblue]

How are you feeling Bluebell ? I've been wondering how you are. I sent you a pm.

Take care and hope you feel alittle better