- Jan 1, 2014
And much more. Just feeling really sad this evening, i have felt like it all day, i feel like this all the time i just get brief hours where i'm slightly more positive and hopeful. I have to remember it was only one week ago that i took an overdose. I'm still not sleeping well. Never sleep well due to this stupid med i take. Feel alone in life. Feel like i have little to occupy myself with so i'm left with my thoughts. Wish i could opt out of life somehow, not die but just push a button and be unconscious, i think i'd sleep through my whole life though, not that that'd be a bad thing. Life is hard. I know that we should accept this as fact, and therefore see the silver lining and all that, but it really is hard. I seem to sink and sink much of the time, sink to the point of overdose, knock myself out with extra meds, and then try to pull myself together again, and on goes the cycle.