- Oct 13, 2018
I just finished a month of intensive outpatient and now I'm back at work full time. I'm really angry because my life isn't the way I want it to be. The frustration is so deep. I'm supposed to be doing good, supposedly, but I'm not good. I hate my job and have no other choice but to stay there for now. I want to quit but what else would I do with my time? Plus how would I get another job?. I flipped out on our delivery guy because he made fun of me one time a while back but when I was gone I realized what he meant when he said what he did. Normally I wouldn't do that but with my sensitivity and low self-esteem I lost it. I have no one except for my therapist to tell me everything is alright or I'm doing good. I just don't see how I got myself in this situation. Were all those hours of group therapy a waste? I'm so unhappy. If I could just reach out and find that I'm not all alone it would make all the difference. Am I still sick or am I just pissed things aren't coming together sooner etc? Am I seeing clearly or is the world coming to an end?