lucynah
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Tw for suicide
I've posted about this on this forum before but I finally worked out this is real event OCD so I guess here's the place to actually get help for it.
About a year ago a group of users began a I guess kind of campaign against another user. The user they were targeting had done and said some wrong things (saying some transphobic stuff, being unprofessional to some of her workers, firing someone that she'd clearly disliked for quite some time), some of which date back to 2 years ago, so that all went into a huge like 120+ page document of all the reasons they disliked her which was uploaded to the Internet. The user they were targeting had wronged some of these users so in retaliation they essentially I think tried to wreck her career by trying to get her money taken away and leaking the scripts of her stories to the public before they were officially released. Everyone in the online community saw what was happening.
Like I said, this all kicked off last year. For about a year since people have been leaving horrible messages about her on social media, saying like
- They hate her
-calling her a piece of shit and a dirtbag
-saying her art is ugly
-mocking the online series she made as a teenager because she cast and starred herself as the main character
-saying she's a bad person
-telling people not to interact with her
-telling people they will block them if they see you're following her
-keeping note and tabs on which other popular users still follow her
-sneaking onto her internet servers and leaking her posts and then making a video laughing at her when she realizes who it is
-accusing her of stealing
-leaking a convo where she says how upset and paranoid she is that all her conversations are being leaked, and claiming that this is her playing the victim card and guilttripping them
-when she locked down all her social media saying she was being threatened in ways she would never have imagined, they accused her of lying and said she should give them evidence she's being threatened
This is all spanning multiple social media platforms. For the record, I heavily disagree with some stuff this woman has done in the past, and I don't blame anybody for not wanting to talk to her since she has messed up in the past. However, this is just utterly unnecessary. I found it very worrying. Due to a suicide-related incident in my past that traumatized me, I'm quite well aware and educated on suicide and the warning signs, and knew that so many messages like this targeted at a person on social media can sometimes lead to suicide. I was growing increasingly concerned.
I left multiple comments of my own basically saying that I understood why people were angry and that this woman doesn't seem like a saint, but this has gone too far now and it has to stop. I said that saying things like this on the Internet isn't a game, it's actively dangerous for somebody's life and mental health, and that you can dislike her all you want but you don't need to type every nasty thought you have about her onto social media. I said that everyone involved, but particularly the people who originally kicked all of this off, were playing with fire and that it is the responsibility of the people involved to reign everyone else in and tell them to cut it out with the hate messages. I said that there was no way a year-long campaign like this wouldn't harm her mental health in some way, and I said that everyone needs to be aware that they are engaging in an online activity that kills people and that they need to take responsibility and accountability for the fact that if she kills herself because of this, it's on them for not stopping.
For the record I was not saying this woman will definitely kill herself. She very likely won't (due to my past trauma I do get very hypervigilant about suicide). But there is a definite risk when stuff like this has been going on for a year.
I was accused of bullying them back, and that I was suicide baiting. I will admit that at this point I lost my temper and started arguing with someone about it on another social media platform even when they told me to stop talking to them, which was wrong of me and I apologized afterwards. However, I was furious that they accused me of being the bully and of suicide baiting.
Later on though I started really doubting myself. What if I was being abusive and manipulative? What if I was suicide baiting? People kept saying that they weren't bullying her, they were just holding her accountable and that these are just the consequences of her actions. Additionally like I said this woman had made a few transphobic comments (not slurs) in the past which I completely disagree with since I hate transphobia. But I felt like I couldn't just sit there and watch people rip her apart without saying anything.
This all happened a few weeks ago now and I'm still very shaken, worrying that I was being abusive and manipulative and suicide-bait-y. I know this is my OCD but it's still something that's very much on my mind. I panic so hard when someone tells me I've done something wrong.
I've posted about this on this forum before but I finally worked out this is real event OCD so I guess here's the place to actually get help for it.
About a year ago a group of users began a I guess kind of campaign against another user. The user they were targeting had done and said some wrong things (saying some transphobic stuff, being unprofessional to some of her workers, firing someone that she'd clearly disliked for quite some time), some of which date back to 2 years ago, so that all went into a huge like 120+ page document of all the reasons they disliked her which was uploaded to the Internet. The user they were targeting had wronged some of these users so in retaliation they essentially I think tried to wreck her career by trying to get her money taken away and leaking the scripts of her stories to the public before they were officially released. Everyone in the online community saw what was happening.
Like I said, this all kicked off last year. For about a year since people have been leaving horrible messages about her on social media, saying like
- They hate her
-calling her a piece of shit and a dirtbag
-saying her art is ugly
-mocking the online series she made as a teenager because she cast and starred herself as the main character
-saying she's a bad person
-telling people not to interact with her
-telling people they will block them if they see you're following her
-keeping note and tabs on which other popular users still follow her
-sneaking onto her internet servers and leaking her posts and then making a video laughing at her when she realizes who it is
-accusing her of stealing
-leaking a convo where she says how upset and paranoid she is that all her conversations are being leaked, and claiming that this is her playing the victim card and guilttripping them
-when she locked down all her social media saying she was being threatened in ways she would never have imagined, they accused her of lying and said she should give them evidence she's being threatened
This is all spanning multiple social media platforms. For the record, I heavily disagree with some stuff this woman has done in the past, and I don't blame anybody for not wanting to talk to her since she has messed up in the past. However, this is just utterly unnecessary. I found it very worrying. Due to a suicide-related incident in my past that traumatized me, I'm quite well aware and educated on suicide and the warning signs, and knew that so many messages like this targeted at a person on social media can sometimes lead to suicide. I was growing increasingly concerned.
I left multiple comments of my own basically saying that I understood why people were angry and that this woman doesn't seem like a saint, but this has gone too far now and it has to stop. I said that saying things like this on the Internet isn't a game, it's actively dangerous for somebody's life and mental health, and that you can dislike her all you want but you don't need to type every nasty thought you have about her onto social media. I said that everyone involved, but particularly the people who originally kicked all of this off, were playing with fire and that it is the responsibility of the people involved to reign everyone else in and tell them to cut it out with the hate messages. I said that there was no way a year-long campaign like this wouldn't harm her mental health in some way, and I said that everyone needs to be aware that they are engaging in an online activity that kills people and that they need to take responsibility and accountability for the fact that if she kills herself because of this, it's on them for not stopping.
For the record I was not saying this woman will definitely kill herself. She very likely won't (due to my past trauma I do get very hypervigilant about suicide). But there is a definite risk when stuff like this has been going on for a year.
I was accused of bullying them back, and that I was suicide baiting. I will admit that at this point I lost my temper and started arguing with someone about it on another social media platform even when they told me to stop talking to them, which was wrong of me and I apologized afterwards. However, I was furious that they accused me of being the bully and of suicide baiting.
Later on though I started really doubting myself. What if I was being abusive and manipulative? What if I was suicide baiting? People kept saying that they weren't bullying her, they were just holding her accountable and that these are just the consequences of her actions. Additionally like I said this woman had made a few transphobic comments (not slurs) in the past which I completely disagree with since I hate transphobia. But I felt like I couldn't just sit there and watch people rip her apart without saying anything.
This all happened a few weeks ago now and I'm still very shaken, worrying that I was being abusive and manipulative and suicide-bait-y. I know this is my OCD but it's still something that's very much on my mind. I panic so hard when someone tells me I've done something wrong.
i’m sorry you feel this way
